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‘there's plenty more in the cellar。'
〃‘You know the house； then？' I said。
〃‘Too well；' he answered； with a sadness so strange as to have
something eerie about it。 ‘I am always trying to forget what I know
and to find what I don't know。' He drained his glass。
‘Besides；' he added； ‘it will do him good。'
〃‘What will do him good？'
〃‘The wine I'm drinking；' said the strange person。
〃‘Does he drink too much； then？' I inquired。
〃‘No；' he answered； ‘not unless I do。'
〃‘Do you mean；' I demanded； ‘that the owner of this house approves
of all you do？'
〃‘God forbid；' he answered； ‘but he has to do the same。'
〃The dead face of the fog looking in at all three windows
unreasonable increased a sense of riddle； and even terror；
about this tall； narrow house we had entered out of the sky。
I had once more the notion about the gigantic genii
I fancied that enormous Egyptian faces； of the dead reds
and yellows of Egypt； were staring in at each window of our
little lamp…lit room as at a lighted stage of marionettes。
My companion went on playing with the pistol in front of him；
and talking with the same rather creepy confidentialness。
〃‘I am always trying to find himto catch him unawares。
I come in through skylights and trapdoors to find him；
but whenever I find himhe is doing what I am doing。'
〃I sprang to my feet with a thrill of fear。 ‘There is some one coming；'
I cried； and my cry had something of a shriek in it。 〃Not from
the stairs below； but along the passage from the inner bedchamber
（which seemed somehow to make it more alarming）； footsteps were
coming nearer。 I am quite unable to say what mystery； or monster；
or double； I expected to see when the door was pushed open from within。
I am only quite certain that I did not expect to see what I did see。
〃Framed in the open doorway stood； with an air of great serenity；
a rather tall young woman； definitely though indefinably artistic
her dress the colour of spring and her hair of autumn leaves；
with a face which； though still comparatively young；
conveyed experience as well as intelligence。 All she said was；
‘I didn't hear you come in。'
〃‘I came in another way；' said the Permeator； somewhat vaguely。
‘I'd left my latchkey at home。'
〃I got to my feet in a mixture of politeness and mania。
‘I'm really very sorry；' I cried。 ‘I know my position is irregular。
Would you be so obliging as to tell me whose house this is。？'
〃‘Mine；' said the burglar； ‘May I present you to my wife？'
〃I doubtfully； and somewhat slowly； resumed my seat；
and I did not get out of it till nearly morning。 Mrs。 Smith
（such was the prosaic name of this far from prosaic household）
lingered a little； talking slightly and pleasantly。
She left on my mind the impression of a certain odd mixture
of shyness and sharpness； as if she knew the world well；
but was still a little harmlessly afraid of it。
Perhaps the possession of so jumpy and incalculable a husband
had left her a little nervous。 Anyhow； when she had retired
to the inner chamber once more； that extraordinary man poured
forth his apologia and autobiography over the dwindling wine。
〃He had been sent to Cambridge with a view to a mathematical
and scientific； rather than a classical or literary； career。
A starless nihilism was then the philosophy of the schools；
and it bred in him a war between the members and the spirit；
but one in which the members were right。 While his brain
accepted the black creed； his very body rebelled against it。
As he put it； his right hand taught him terrible things。
As the authorities of Cambridge University put it； unfortunately；
it had taken the form of his right hand flourishing a loaded
firearm in the very face of a distinguished don； and driving
him to climb out of the window and cling to a waterspout。
He had done it solely because the poor don had professed
in theory a preference for non…existence。 For this
very unacademic type of argument he had been sent down。
Vomiting as he was with revulsion； from the pessimism that had
quailed under his pistol； he made himself a kind of fanatic
of the joy of life。 He cut across all the associations
of serious…minded men。 He was gay； but by no means careless。
His practical jokes were more in earnest than verbal ones。
Though not an optimist in the absurd sense of maintaining that
life is all beer and skittles； he did really seem to maintain
that beer and skittles are the most serious part of it。
‘What is more immortal；' he would cry； ‘than love and war？
Type of all desire and joybeer。 Type of all battle
and conquestskittles。'
〃There was something in him of what the old world called
the solemnity of revelswhen they spoke of ‘solemnizing'
a mere masquerade or wedding banquet。 Nevertheless he was not
a mere pagan any more than he was a mere practical joker。
His eccentricities sprang from a static fact of faith；
in itself mystical； and even childlike and Christian。
〃‘I don't deny；' he said； ‘that there should be priests to remind
men that they will one day die。 I only say that at certain
strange epochs it is necessary to have another kind of priests；
called poets； actually to remind men that they are not dead yet。
The intellectuals among whom I moved were not even alive enough
to fear death。 They hadn't enough blood in them to be cowards。
Until a pistol barrel was poked under their very noses they never
even knew they had been born。 For ages looking up an eternal
perspective it might be true that life is a learning to die。
But for these little white rats it was just as true that death
was their only chance of learning to live。'
〃His creed of wonder was Christian by this absolute test； that he felt
it continually slipping from himself as much as from others。
He had the same pistol for himself； as Brutus said of the dagger。
He continually ran preposterous risks of high precipice or headlong
speed to keep alive the mere conviction that he was alive。
He treasured up trivial and yet insane details that had once
reminded him of the awful subconscious reality。 When the don
had hung on the stone gutter； the sight of his long dangling legs；
vibrating in the void like wings； somehow awoke the naked satire
of the old definition of man as a two…legged animal without feathers。
The wretched professor had been brought into peril by his head；
which he had so elaborately cultivated； and only saved
by his legs； which he had treated with coldness and neglect。
Smith could think of no other way of announcing or recording this；
except to send a telegram to an old friend （by this time a
total stranger） to say that he had just seen a man with two legs；
and that the man was alive。
〃The uprush of his released optimism burst into stars like a rocket
when he suddenly fell in love。 He happened to be shooting a high
and very headlong weir in a canoe； by way of proving to himself
that he was alive； and he soon found himself involved in some doubt
about the continuance of the fact。 What was worse； he found he had
equally jeopardized a harmless lady alone in a rowing…boat； and one
who had provoked death by no professions of philosophic negation。
He apologized in wild gasp