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muted voices。 Talk would help me fight off the exhaustion。
But； perversely； I bit my tongue against the flood of questions。 My reasoning was probably flawed by
exhaustion； but I hoped that by postponing the discussion； I could buy a few more hours with him at
some later time—spin this out for another night； Scheherazade…style。
So I kept drinking soda； and resisting even the urge to blink。 Edward seemed perfectly content to hold
me in his arms； his fingers tracing my face again and again。 I touched his face； too。 I couldn't stop myself；
though I was afraid it would hurt me later； when I was alone again。 He continued to kiss my hair； my
forehead； my wrists… but never my lips； and that was good。 After all； how many ways can one heart be
mangled and still be expected to keep beating？ I'd lived through a lot that should have finished me in the
last few days； but it didn't make me feel strong。 Instead； I felt horribly fragile； like one word could shatter
me。
Edward didn't speak。 Maybe he was hoping I would sleep。 Maybe he had nothing to say。
I won the fight against my heavy lids。 I was awake when we reached the airport in Atlanta； and I even
watched the sun beginning to rise over Seattle's cloud cover before Edward slid the window shut。 I was
proud of myself。 I hadn't missed one minute。
Neither Alice nor Edward was surprised by the reception that waited for us at Sea…Tac airport； but it
caught me off guard。 Jasper was the first one I saw—he didn't seem to see me at all。 His eyes were only
for Alice。 She went quickly to his side； they didn't embrace like other couples meeting there。 They only
stared into each other's faces； yet； somehow； the moment was so private that I still felt the need to look
away。
Carlisle and Esme waited in a quiet corner far from the line for the metal detectors； in the shadow of a
wide pillar。 Esme reached for me； hugging me fiercely； yet awkwardly； because Edward kept his arms
around me； too。
〃Thank you so much；〃 she said in my ear。
Then she threw her arms around Edward； and she looked like she would be crying if that were possible。
〃Youwill never put me through ：hat again；〃 she nearly growled。
Edward grinned； repentant。 〃Sorry； Mom。〃
〃Thank you； Bella；〃 Carlisle said。 〃We owe you。〃
〃Hardly；〃 I mumbled。 The sleepless night was suddenly overpowering。 My head felt disconnected from
my body。
〃She's dead on her feet；〃 Esme scolded Edward。 〃Let's get her home。〃
Not sure if home was what I wanted at this point； I stumbled； half…blind； through the airport； Edward
dragging me on one side and Esme on the other。 I didn't know if Alice and Jasper were behind us or not；
and I was too exhausted to look。
I think I was mostly asleep； though I was still walking； when we reached their car。 The surprise of seeing
Emmett and Rosalie leaning against the black sedan under the dim lights of the parking garage revived me
some。 Edward stiffened。
〃Don't；〃 Esme whispered。 〃She feels awful。〃
〃She should；〃 Edward said； making no attempt to keep his voice down。
〃It's not her fault；〃 I said； my words garbled with exhaustion。
〃Let her make amends；〃 Esme pleaded。 〃We'll ride with Alice and Jasper。〃
Edward glowered at the absurdly lovely blond vampire waiting for us。
〃Please； Edward；〃 I said。 I didn't want to ride with Rosalie any more than he seemed to； but I'd caused
more than enough discord in his family。
He sighed； and towed me toward the car。
Emmett and Rosalie got in the front seat without speaking； while Edward pulled me in the back again。 I
knew I wasn't going to be able to fight my eyelids anymore； and I laid my head against his chest in defeat；
letting them close。 I felt the car purr to life。
〃Edward；〃 Rosalie began。
〃I know。〃 Edward's brusque tone was not generous。
〃Bella？〃 Rosalie asked softly。
My eyelids fluttered open in shock。 It was the first time she'd ever spoken directly to me。
〃Yes； Rosalie？〃 I asked； hesitant。
〃I'm so very sorry； Bella。 I feel wretched about every part of this； and so grateful that you were brave
enough to go save my brother after what I did。 Please say you'll forgive me。〃
The words were awkward； stilted because of her embarrassment； but they seemed sincere。
〃Of course； Rosalie；〃 I mumbled； grasping at any chance to make her hate me a little less。 〃It's not your
fault at all。 I'm the one who jumped off the damn cliff。 Of course I forgive you。〃
The words came out like mush。
〃It doesn't count until she's conscious； Rose；〃 Emmett chuckled。
〃I'm conscious；〃 I said； it just sounded like a garbled sigh。
〃Let her sleep；〃 Edward insisted； but his voice was a little warmer。
It was quiet then； except for the gentle thrum of the engine。 I must have fallen asleep； because it seemed
like seconds later when the door opened and Edward was carrying me from the car。 My eyes wouldn't
open。 At first I thought we were still at the airport。
And then I heard Charlie。
〃Bella！〃 he shouted from some distance。
〃Charlie；〃 I mumbled； trying to shake off the stupor。
〃Shh；〃 Edward whispered。 〃It's okay； you're home and safe。 Just sleep。〃
〃I can't believe you have the nerve to show your face here。〃 Charlie bellowed at Edward； his voice much
closer now。
〃Stop it； Dad；〃 I groaned。 He didn't hear me。
〃What's wrong with her？〃 Charlie demanded。
〃She's just very tired； Charlie；〃 Edward assured him quietly。 〃Please let her rest。〃
〃Don't tell me what to do！〃 Charlie yelled。 〃Give her to me。 Get your hands off her！〃
Edward tried to pass me to Charlie； but I clung to him with locked； tenacious fingers。 I could feel my dad
yanking on my arm。
〃Cut it out； Dad；〃 I said with more volume。 I managed to drag my lids back to stare at Charlie with bleary
eyes。 〃Be mad at me。〃
We were in front of my house。 The front door was standing open。 The cloud cover overhead was too
thick to guess at a time of day。
〃You bet I will be；〃 Charlie promised。 〃Get inside。〃 i'〃Kay。 Let me down；〃 I sighed。
Edward set me on my feet。 I could see that I was upright； but I couldn't feel my legs。 I trudged forward
anyway； until the sidewalk swirled up toward my face。 Edward's arms caught me before I hit the
concrete。
〃Just let me get her upstairs；〃 Edward said。 〃Then I'll leave。〃
〃No；〃 I cried； panicking。 I hadn't got my answers yet。 He had to stay for at least that much； didn't he？
〃I won't be far；〃 Edward promised； whispering so low in my ear that Charlie didn't have a hope of
hearing。
I didn't hear Charlie answer； but Edward headed into the house。 My open eyes only made it till the stairs。
The last thing I felt was Edward's cool hands prying my fingers loose from his shirt。
23。 THE TRUTH
I HAD THE SENSE THAT I'D BEEN ASLEEP FOR A VERY long time—my body was stiff； like I
hadn't moved once through all that time； either。 My mind was dazed and slow； strange； colorful
dreams—dreams and nightmares—swirled dizzily around the inside of my head。 They were so vivid。 The
horrible and the heavenly； all mixed together into a bizarre jumble。 There was sharp impatience and fear；