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By the time we got back to La Push； I was twenty…three and he was thirty—he was definitely weighting
skills in his favor。
I hadn't forgotten the reason for what I was doing。 And； even though I was enjoying myself more than I'd
thought possible； there was no lessening of my original desire。 I still wanted to cheat。 It was senseless；
and I really didn't care。 I was going to be as reckless as I could possibly manage in Forks。 I would not
be the only keeper of an empty contract。 Getting to spend time with Jacob was just a much bigger perk
than I'd expected。
Billy wasn't back yet； so we didn't have to be sneaky about unloading our day's spoils。 As soon as we
had everything laid out on the plastic floor next to Jacob's toolbox； he went right to work； still talking and
laughing while his fingers combed expertly through the metal pieces in front of him。
Jacob's skill with his hands was fascinating。 They looked too big for the delicate tasks they performed
with ease and precision。 While he worked； he seemed almost graceful。 Unlike when he was on his feet；
there； his height and big feet made him nearly as dangerous as I was。
Quil and Embry did not show up； so maybe his threat yesterday had been taken seriously。
The day passed too quickly。 It got dark outside the mouth of the garage before I was expecting it； and
then we heard Billy calling for us。
I jumped up to help Jacob put things away； hesitating because I wasn't sure what I should touch。
〃Just leave it；〃 he said。 〃I'll work on it later tonight。〃
〃Don't forget your schoolwork or anything；〃 I said； feeling a little guilty。 I didn't want him to get in trouble。
That plan was just for me。
〃Bella？〃
Both our heads snapped up as Charlie's familiar voice wafted through the trees； sounding closer than the
house。
〃Shoot；〃 I muttered。 〃Coming！〃 I yelled toward the house。
〃Let's go。〃 Jacob smiled； enjoying the cloak…and…dagger。 He snapped the light off； and for a moment I
was blind。 Jacob grabbed my hand and towed me out of the garage and through the trees； his feet finding
the familiar path easily。 His hand was rough； and very warm。
Despite the path； we were both tripping over our feet in the darkness。 So we were also both laughing
when the house came into view。 The laughter did not go deep； it was light and superficial； but still nice。 I
was sure he wouldn't notice the faint hint of hysteria。 I wasn't used to laughing； and it felt right and also
very wrong at the same time。
Charlie was standing under the little back porch； and Billy was sitting in the doorway behind them。
〃Hey； Dad；〃 we both said at the same time； and that started us laughing again。
Charlie stared at me with wide eyes that flashed down to note Jacob's hand around mine。
〃Billy invited us for dinner；〃 Charlie said to us in an absentminded tone。
〃My super secret recipe for spaghetti。 Handed down for generations；〃 Billy said gravely。
Jacob snorted。 〃I don't think Ragu's actually been around that long。〃
The house was crowded。 Harry Clearwater was there； too； with his family—his wife； Sue； whom I knew
vaguely from my childhood summers in Forks； and his two children。 Leah was a senior like me； but a
year older。 She was beautiful in an exotic way—perfect copper skin； glistening black hair； eyelashes like
feather dusters—and preoccupied。 She was on Billy's phone when we got in； and she never let it go。
Seth was fourteen； he hung on Jacob's every word with idolizing eyes。
There were too many of us for the kitchen table； so Charlie and Harry brought chairs out to the yard； and
we ate spaghetti off plates on our laps in the dim light from Billy's open door。 The men talked about the
game； and Harry and Charlie made fishing plans。 Sue teased her husband about his cholesterol and tried；
unsuccessfully； to shame him into eating something green and leafy。 Jacob talked mostly to me and Seth；
who interrupted eagerly whenever Jacob seemed in danger of forgetting him。 Charlie watched me； trying
to be inconspicuous about it； with pleased but cautious eyes。
It was loud and sometimes confusing as everyone talked over everyone else； and the laughter from one
joke interrupted the telling of another。 I didn't have to speak often； but I smiled a lot； and only because I
felt like it。
I didn't want to leave。
This was Washington； though； and the inevitable rain eventually broke up the party； Billy's living room
was much too small to provide an option for continuing the get…together。 Harry had driven Charlie down；
so we rode together in my truck on the way back home。 He asked about my day； and I told mostly the
truth—that I'd gone with Jacob to look at parts and then watched him work in his garage。
〃You think you'll visit again anytime soon？〃 he wondered； trying to be casual about it。
〃Tomorrow after school；〃 I admitted。 〃I'll take homework； don't worry。〃
〃You be sure to do that；〃 he ordered； trying to disguise his satisfaction。
I was nervous when we got to the house。 I didn't want to go upstairs。 The warmth of Jacob's presence
was fading and； in its absence； the anxiety grew stronger。 I was sure I wouldn't get away with two
peaceful nights of sleep in a row。
To put bedtime off； I checked my e…mail； there was a new message from Renee。
She wrote about her day； a new book club that rilled the time slot of the meditation classes she'd just
quit； her week subbing in the second grade； missing her kindergarteners。 She wrote that Phil was
enjoying his new coaching job； and that they were planning a second honeymoon trip to Disney World。
And I noticed that the whole thing read like a journal entry； rather than a letter to someone else。 Remorse
flooded through me； leaving an uncomfortable sting behind。 Some daughter I was。
I wrote back to her quickly； commenting on each part of her letter； volunteering information of my
own—describing the spaghetti party at Billy's and how I felt watching Jacob build useful things out of
small pieces of metal—awed and slightly envious。 I made no reference to the change this letter would be
from the ones she'd received in the last several months。 I could barely remember what I'd written to her
even as recently as last week； but I was sure it wasn't very responsive。 The more I thought about it； the
guiltier I felt； I really must have worried her。
I stayed up extra late after that； finishing more homework than strictly necessary。 But neither sleep
deprivation nor the time spent with Jacob—being almost happy in a shallow kind of way—could keep
the dream away for two nights in a row。
I woke shuddering； my scream muffled by the pillow。
As the dim morning light filtered through the fog outside my window； I lay still in bed and tried to shake
off the dream。 There had been a small difference last night； and I concentrated on that。
Last night I had not been alone in the woods。 Sam Uley—the man who had pulled me from the forest
floor that night I couldn't bear to think of consciously—was there。 It was an odd； unexpected alteration。
The man's dark eyes had been surprisingly unfriendly； filled with so