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your tears！ I accept the contract which must end in suffering to
myself。 I give myself to you with no ulterior thought。 I will be to
you that which you will me to be〃
She stopped me with a motion of her hand； and said in her deep voice；
〃I consent to this agreement if you will promise never to tighten the
bonds which bind us together。〃
〃Yes；〃 I said； 〃but the less you grant the more evidence of possession
I ought to have。〃
〃You begin by distrusting me；〃 she replied； with an expression of
melancholy doubt。
〃No； I speak from pure happiness。 Listen； give me a name by which no
one calls you； a name to be ours only； like the feeling which unites
us。〃
〃That is much to ask；〃 she said； 〃but I will show you that I am not
petty。 Monsieur de Mortsauf calls me Blanche。 One only person； the one
I have most loved； my dear aunt； called me Henriette。 I will be
Henriette once more； to you。〃
I took her hand and kissed it。 She left it in mine with the
trustfulness that makes a woman so far superior to men； a trustfulness
that shames us。 She was leaning on the brick balustrade and gazing at
the river。
〃Are you not unwise； my friend； to rush at a bound to the extremes of
friendship？ You have drained the cup； offered in all sincerity； at a
draught。 It is true that a real feeling is never piecemeal； it must be
whole； or it does not exist。 Monsieur de Mortsauf；〃 she added after a
short silence； 〃is above all things loyal and brave。 Perhaps for my
sake you will forget what he said to you to…day； if he has forgotten
it to…morrow； I will myself tell him what occurred。 Do not come to
Clochegourde for a few days； he will respect you more if you do not。
On Sunday； after church； he will go to you。 I know him； he will wish
to undo the wrong he did； and he will like you all the better for
treating him as a man who is responsible for his words and actions。〃
〃Five days without seeing you； without hearing your voice！〃
〃Do not put such warmth into your manner of speaking to me；〃 she said。
We walked twice round the terrace in silence。 Then she said； in a tone
of command which proved to me that she had taken possession of my
soul； 〃It is late； we will part。〃
I wished to kiss her hand； she hesitated； then gave it to me； and said
in a voice of entreaty： 〃Never take it unless I give it to you； leave
me my freedom； if not； I shall be simply a thing of yours； and that
ought not to be。〃
〃Adieu；〃 I said。
I went out by the little gate of the lower terrace； which she opened
for me。 Just as she was about to close it she opened it again and
offered me her hand； saying： 〃You have been truly good to me this
evening； you have comforted my whole future； take it； my friend； take
it。〃
I kissed her hand again and again； and when I raised my eyes I saw the
tears in hers。 She returned to the upper terrace and I watched her for
a moment from the meadow。 When I was on the road to Frapesle I again
saw her white robe shimmering in a moonbeam； then； a few moments
later； a light was in her bedroom。
〃Oh； my Henriette！〃 I cried； 〃to you I pledge the purest love that
ever shone upon this earth。〃
I turned at every step as I regained Frapesle。 Ineffable contentment
filled my mind。 A way was open for the devotion that swells in all
youthful hearts and which in mine had been so long inert。 Like the
priest who by one solemn step enters a new life； my vows were taken； I
was consecrated。 A simple 〃Yes〃 had bound me to keep my love within my
soul and never to abuse our friendship by leading this woman step by
step to love。 All noble feelings were awakened within me； and I heard
the murmur of their voices。 Before confining myself within the narrow
walls of a room； I stopped beneath the azure heavens sown with stars；
I listened to the ring…dove plaints of my own heart； I heard again the
simple tones of that ingenuous confidence； I gathered in the air the
emanations of that soul which henceforth must ever seek me。 How grand
that woman seemed to me； with her absolute forgetfulness of self； her
religion of mercy to wounded hearts； feeble or suffering； her declared
allegiance to her legal yoke。 She was there； serene upon her pyre of
saint and martyr。 I adored her face as it shone to me in the darkness。
Suddenly I fancied I perceived a meaning in her words； a mysterious
significance which made her to my eyes sublime。 Perhaps she longed
that I should be to her what she was to the little world around her。
Perhaps she sought to draw from me her strength and consolation；
putting me thus within her sphere； her equal； or perhaps above her。
The stars； say some bold builders of the universe； communicate to each
other light and motion。 This thought lifted me to ethereal regions。 I
entered once more the heaven of my former visions； I found a meaning
for the miseries of my childhood in the illimitable happiness to which
they had led me。
Spirits quenched by tears； hearts misunderstood； saintly Clarissa
Harlowes forgotten or ignored； children neglected； exiles innocent of
wrong； all ye who enter life through barren ways； on whom men's faces
everywhere look coldly； to whom ears close and hearts are shut； cease
your complaints！ You alone can know the infinitude of joy held in that
moment when one heart opens to you； one ear listens； one look answers
yours。 A single day effaces all past evil。 Sorrow； despondency；
despair； and melancholy； passed but not forgotten； are links by which
the soul then fastens to its mate。 Woman falls heir to all our past；
our sighs； our lost illusions； and gives them back to us ennobled； she
explains those former griefs as payment claimed by destiny for joys
eternal； which she brings to us on the day our souls are wedded。 The
angels alone can utter the new name by which that sacred love is
called； and none but women； dear martyrs； truly know what Madame de
Mortsauf now became to meto me； poor and desolate。
CHAPTER II
FIRST LOVE
This scene took place on a Tuesday。 I waited until Sunday and did not
cross the river。 During those five days great events were happening at
Clochegourde。 The count received his brevet as general of brigade； the
cross of Saint Louis； and a pension of four thousand francs。 The Duc
de Lenoncourt…Givry； made peer of France； recovered possession of two
forests； resumed his place at court； and his wife regained all her
unsold property； which had been made part of the imperial crown lands。
The Comtesse de Mortsauf thus became an heiress。 Her mother had
arrived at Clochegourde； bringing her a hundred thousand francs
economized at Givry； the amount of her dowry； still unpaid and never
asked for by the count in spite of his poverty。 In all such matters of
external life the conduct of this man was proudly disinterested。
Adding to this sum his own few savings he was able to buy two
neighboring estates； which would yield him some nine thousand francs a
year。 His son would of course succeed to the grandfather's peerage；
and the count now saw his way to entail the estate upon him without
injury to Madeleine； for whom the Duc de Lenoncourt would no doubt
assist in promoting a good marriage。
These arrangements and this new happiness