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and faithful servant！' In this frame of conscience； and with a glowing countenance； he was hurried away to penal servitude。
This was a very painful incident； and it is easy to see how compromising； how cruel； it was in its effect upon our communion； what occasion it gave to our enemies to blaspheme。 No one； in either meeting； could or would raise a voice to defend Mr。 Dormant。 We had to bow our heads when we met our enemies in the gate。 The blow fell more heavily on the meeting of which he had been a prominent and communicating member； but it fell on us too； and my Father felt it severely。 For many years he would never mention the man's name； and he refused all discussion of the incident。
Yet I was never sure； and I am not sure now； that the wretched being was a hypocrite。 There are as many vulgar fanatics as there are distinguished ones； and I am not convinced that Dormant； coarse and narrow as he was； may not have sincerely believed that it was better for the money to be used in religious propaganda than in the pleasures of the world； of which he doubtless formed a very vague idea。 On this affair I meditated much； and it awakened in my mind； for the first time； a doubt whether our exclusive system of ethics was an entirely salutary one； if it could lead the conscience of a believer to tolerate such acts as these； acts which my Father himself had denounced as dishonourable and disgraceful。
My stepmother brought with her a little library of such books as we had not previously seen； but which yet were known to all the world except us。 Prominent among these was a set of the poems of Walter Scott； and in his unwonted geniality and provisional spirit of compromise； my Father must do no less than read these works aloud to my stepmother in the quiet spring evenings。 This was a sort of aftermath of courtship； a tribute of song to his bride； very sentimental and pretty。 She would sit； sedately； at her workbox； while he； facing her； poured forth the verses at her like a blackbird。 I was not considered in this arrangement； which was wholly matrimonial； but I was present； and the exercise made more impression upon me than it did upon either of the principal agents。My Father read the verse admirably； with a full；some people （but not I） might say with a too fullperception of the metre as well as of the rhythm； rolling out the rhymes； and glorying in the proper names。 He began； and it was a happy choice； with 'The Lady of the Lake'。 It gave me singular pleasure to hear his large voice do justice to 'Duncrannon' and 'Cambus… Kenneth'； and wake the echoes with 'Rhoderigh Vich Alphine dhu； ho！ ieroe！' I almost gasped with excitement； while a shudder floated down my backbone； when we came to：
A sharp and shrieking echo gave； Coir…Uriskin； thy goblin cave！ And the grey pass where birches wave； On Beala…nam…bo；
a passage which seemed to me to achieve the ideal of sublime romance。 My thoughts were occupied all day long with the adventures of Fitzjames and the denizens of Ellen's Isle。 It became an obsession； and when I was asked whether I remembered the name of the cottage where the minister of the Bible Christians lodged； I answered； dreamily； 'Yes；Bealanambo。'
Seeing me so much fascinated； thrown indeed into a temporary frenzy； by the epic poetry of Sir Walter Scott； my stepmother asked my Father whether I might not start reading the Waverley Novels。 But he refused to permit this； on the ground that those tales gave false and disturbing pictures of life； and would lead away my attention from heavenly things。 I do not fully apprehend what distinction he drew between the poems； which he permitted； and the novels； which he refused。 But I suppose he regarded a work in verse as more artificial； and therefore less likely to make a realistic impression； than one in prose。 There is something quaint in the conscientious scruple which allows The Lord of the Isles and excludes Rob Roy。
But stranger still； and amounting almost to a whim； was his sudden decision that； although I might not touch the novels of Scott； I was free to read those of Dickens。 I recollect that my stepmother showed some surprise at this； and that my Father explained to her that Dickens 'exposes the passion of love in a ridiculous light。' She did not seem to follow this recommendation； which indeed tends to the ultra…subtle； but she procured for me a copy of Pickwick； by which I was instantly and gloriously enslaved。 My shouts of laughing at the richer passages were almost scandalous； and led to my being reproved for disturbing my Father while engaged； in an upper room； in the study of God's Word。 I must have expended months on the perusal of Pickwick； for I used to rush through a chapter； and then read it over again very slowly； word for word； and then shut my eyes to realize the figures and the action。
I suppose no child will ever again enjoy that rapture of unresisting humorous appreciation of 'Pickwick'。 I felt myself to be in the company of a gentleman so extremely funny that I began to laugh before he began to speak； no sooner did he remark 'the sky was dark and gloomy； the air was damp and raw；' than I was in fits of hilarity。 My retirement in our sequestered corner of life made me； perhaps； even in this matter； somewhat old…fashioned； and possibly I was the latest of the generation who accepted Mr。 Pickwick with an unquestioning and hysterical abandonment。 Certainly few young people now seem sensitive； as I was； and as thousands before me had been； to the quality of his fascination。
It was curious that living in a household where a certain delicate art of painting was diligently cultivated； I had yet never seen a real picture； and was scarcely familiar with the design of one in engraving。 My stepmother； however； brought a flavour of the fine arts with her； a kind of aesthetic odour； like that of lavender； clung to her as she moved。 She had known authentic artists in her youth； she had watched Old Crome painting； and had taken a course of drawing…lessons from no less a person than Cotman。 She painted small watercolour landscapes herself； with a delicate economy of means and a graceful Norwich convention； her sketch…books were filled with abbeys gently washed in； river…banks in sepia by which the elect might be dimly reminded of Liber Studiorum； and woodland scenes over which the ghost of Creswick had faintly breathed。 It was not exciting art； but it was； so far as it went； in its lady…like reserve； the real thing。 Our seaanemones； our tropic birds； our bits of spongy rock filled and sprayed with corallines； had been very conscientious and skilful； but； essentially； so far as art was concerned； the wrong thing。
Thus I began to acquire； without understanding the value of it； some conception of the elegant phases of early English watercolour painting； and there was one singular piece of a marble well brimming with water； and a greyish…blue sky over it； and dark…green poplars； shaped like wet brooms； menacing the middle distance； which Cotman himself had painted； and this seemed beautiful and curious to me in its dim； flat frame； when it was hoisted to a place on our drawing…room wall。
But still I had never seen a subject…picture； although my stepmother