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n body； although in years still even a child。 This my Father believed to be my case； and in this rare class did he fondly persuade himself to station me。
As I have said； the congregation；although docile and timid； and little able； as units； to hold their own against their minister behind his back were faintly hostile to this plan。 None of their own children had ever been so much as suggested for membership； and each of themselves； in ripe years； had been subjected to severe cross…examination。 I think it was rather a bitter pill for some of them to swallow that a pert little boy of ten should be admitted； as a grown…up person； to all the hard…won privileges of their order。 Mary Grace Burmington came back from her visits to the cottagers； reporting disaffection here and there； grumblings in the rank and file。 But quite as many； especially of the women； enthusiastically supported my Father's wish； gloried aloud in the manifestations of my early piety； and professed to see in it something of miraculous promise。 The expression 'another Infant Samuel' was widely used。 I became quite a subject of contention。 A war of the sexes threatened to break out over me； I was a disturbing element at cottage breakfasts。 I was mentioned at public prayer…meetings； not indeed by name but； in the extraordinary allusive way customary in our devotions； as 'one amongst us of tender years' or as 'a sapling in the Lord's vineyard'。
To all this my Father put a stop in his own high…handed fashion。 After the morning meeting； one Sunday in the autumn of 1859； he desired the attention of the Saints to a personal matter which was； perhaps； not unfamiliar to them by rumour。 That was； he explained； the question of the admission of his； beloved little son to the communion of saints in the breaking of bread。 He allowedand I sat there in evidence； palely smiling at the audience； my feet scarcely touching the groundthat I was not what is styled adult； I was not； he frankly admitted； a grown…up person。 But I was adult in a knowledge of the Lord； I possessed an insight into the plan of salvation which many a hoary head might envy for its fullness； its clearness； its conformity with Scripture doctrine。 This was a palpable hit at more than one stumbler and fumbler after the truth； and several hoary heads were bowed。
My Father then went on to explain very fully the position which I have already attempted to define。 He admitted the absence in my case of a sudden； apparent act of conversion resulting upon conviction of sin。 But he stated the grounds of his belief that I had； in still earlier infancy； been converted； and he declared that if so； I ought no longer to be excluded from the privileges of communion。 He said； moreover； that he was willing on this occasion to waive his own privilege as a minister； and that he would rather call on Brother Fawkes and Brother Bere； the leading elders； to examine the candidate in his stead。 This was a master… stroke； for Brothers Fawkes and Bere had been suspected of leading the disaffection； and this threw all the burden of responsibility on them。 The meeting broke up in great amiability； and my Father and I went home together in the very highest of spirits。 I； indeed； in my pride； crossed the verge of indiscretion by saying： 'When I have been admitted to fellowship； Papa； shall I be allowed to call you 〃beloved Brother〃？' My Father was too well pleased with the morning's work to be critical。 He laughed； and answered： ' That； my Love； though strictly correct； would hardly； I fear； be thought judicious！'
It was suggested that my tenth birthday； which followed this public announcement by a few days； would be a capital occasion for me to go through the ordeal。 Accordingly； after dark （for our new lamp was lighted for the first time in honour of the event）； I withdrew alone into our drawing…room； which had just； at length； been furnished； and which looked； I thought； very smart。 Hither came to me； first Brother Fawkes； by himself； then Brother Bere； by himself； and then both together； so that you may say； if you are pedanticaly inclined； that I underwent three successive interviews。 My Father； out of sight somewhere； was； of course； playing the part of stage manager。
I felt not at all shy； but so highly strung that my whole nature seemed to throb with excitement。 My first examiner； on the other hand； was extremely confused。 Fawkes； who was a builder in a small business of his own； was short and fat； his complexion； which wore a deeper and more uniform rose…colour than usual； I observed to be starred with dew…drops of nervous emotion； which he wiped away at intervals with a large bandana handkerchief。 He was so long in coming to the point； that I was obliged to lead him to it myself； and I sat up on the sofa in the full lamplight； and testified my faith in the atonement with a fluency that surprised myself。 Before I had done； Fawkes； a middle…aged man with the reputation of being a very stiff employer of labour； was weeping like a child。
Bere； the carpenter； a long； thin and dry man； with a curiously immobile eye； did not fall so easily a prey to my fascinations。 He put me through my paces very sharply； for he had something of the temper of an attorney mingled with his religiousness。 However； I was equal to him； and he； too； though he held his own head higher； was not less impressed than Fawkes had been； by the surroundings of the occasion。 Neither of them had ever been in our drawing…room since it was furnished； and I thought that each of them noticed how smart the wallpaper was。 Indeed； I believe I drew their attention to it。 After the two solitary examinations were over； the elders came in again； as I have said； and they prayed for a long time。 We all three knelt at the sofa； I between them。 But by this time； to my great exaltation of spirits there had succeeded an equally dismal depression。 It was my turn now to weep； and I dimly remember any Father coming into the room； and my being carried up to bed； in a state of collapse and fatigue； by the silent and kindly Miss Marks。
On the following Sunday morning； I was the principal subject which occupied an unusually crowded meeting。 My Father； looking whiter and yet darker than usual； called upon Brother Fawkes and Brother Bere to state to the assembled saints what their experiences had been in connexion with their visits to 'one' who desired to be admitted to the breaking of bread。 It was tremendously exciting to me to hear myself spoken of with this impersonal publicity； and I had no fear of the result。
Events showed that I had no need of fear。 Fawkes and Bere were sometimes accused of a rivalry； which indeed broke out a few years later； and gave my Father much anxiety and pain。 But on this occasion their unanimity was wonderful。 Each strove to exceed the other in the tributes which they paid to any piety。 My answers had been so full and clear； my humility （save the mark！） had been so sweet； my acquaintance with Scripture so amazing； my testimony to all the leading principles of salvation so distinct and exhaustive； that they could only say that they had felt confounded； and yet deeply cheered and led far along their own heavenly path； by hearing such accents fall from