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〃That he's an injury to the others。〃
At this; with one of the quick turns of simple folk; she suddenly flamed up。
〃Master Miles! HIM an injury?〃
There was such a flood of good faith in it that; though I had not yet
seen the child; my very fears made me jump to the absurdity of the idea。
I found myself; to meet my friend the better; offering it;
on the spot; sarcastically。 〃To his poor little innocent mates!〃
〃It's too dreadful;〃 cried Mrs。 Grose; 〃to say such cruel things!
Why; he's scarce ten years old。〃
〃Yes; yes; it would be incredible。〃
She was evidently grateful for such a profession。 〃See him; miss; first。
THEN believe it!〃 I felt forthwith a new impatience to see him;
it was the beginning of a curiosity that; for all the next hours;
was to deepen almost to pain。 Mrs。 Grose was aware; I could judge;
of what she had produced in me; and she followed it up with assurance。
〃You might as well believe it of the little lady。 Bless her;〃
she added the next moment〃LOOK at her!〃
I turned and saw that Flora; whom; ten minutes before; I had established
in the schoolroom with a sheet of white paper; a pencil; and a copy
of nice 〃round o's;〃 now presented herself to view at the open door。
She expressed in her little way an extraordinary detachment from
disagreeable duties; looking to me; however; with a great childish light
that seemed to offer it as a mere result of the affection she had conceived
for my person; which had rendered necessary that she should follow me。
I needed nothing more than this to feel the full force of Mrs。 Grose's
comparison; and; catching my pupil in my arms; covered her with kisses
in which there was a sob of atonement。
Nonetheless; the rest of the day I watched for further occasion
to approach my colleague; especially as; toward evening;
I began to fancy she rather sought to avoid me。 I overtook her;
I remember; on the staircase; we went down together; and at the
bottom I detained her; holding her there with a hand on her arm。
〃I take what you said to me at noon as a declaration that
YOU'VE never known him to be bad。〃
She threw back her head; she had clearly; by this time;
and very honestly; adopted an attitude。 〃Oh; never known him
I don't pretend THAT!〃
I was upset again。 〃Then you HAVE known him?〃
〃Yes indeed; miss; thank God!〃
On reflection I accepted this。 〃You mean that a boy who never is?〃
〃Is no boy for ME!〃
I held her tighter。 〃You like them with the spirit to be naughty?〃
Then; keeping pace with her answer; 〃So do I!〃 I eagerly brought out。
〃But not to the degree to contaminate〃
〃To contaminate?〃my big word left her at a loss。
I explained it。 〃To corrupt。〃
She stared; taking my meaning in; but it produced in her an odd laugh。
〃Are you afraid he'll corrupt YOU?〃 She put the question with such a fine
bold humor that; with a laugh; a little silly doubtless; to match her own;
I gave way for the time to the apprehension of ridicule。
But the next day; as the hour for my drive approached; I cropped
up in another place。 〃What was the lady who was here before?〃
〃The last governess? She was also young and pretty
almost as young and almost as pretty; miss; even as you。〃
〃Ah; then; I hope her youth and her beauty helped her!〃
I recollect throwing off。 〃He seems to like us young and pretty!〃
〃Oh; he DID;〃 Mrs。 Grose assented: 〃it was the way he liked everyone!〃
She had no sooner spoken indeed than she caught herself up。
〃I mean that's HIS waythe master's。〃
I was struck。 〃But of whom did you speak first?〃
She looked blank; but she colored。 〃Why; of HIM。〃
〃Of the master?〃
〃Of who else?〃
There was so obviously no one else that the next moment I
had lost my impression of her having accidentally said more
than she meant; and I merely asked what I wanted to know。
〃Did SHE see anything in the boy?〃
〃That wasn't right? She never told me。〃
I had a scruple; but I overcame it。 〃Was she carefulparticular?〃
Mrs。 Grose appeared to try to be conscientious。
〃About some thingsyes。〃
〃But not about all?〃
Again she considered。 〃Well; missshe's gone。
I won't tell tales。〃
〃I quite understand your feeling;〃 I hastened to reply; but I thought it;
after an instant; not opposed to this concession to pursue:
〃Did she die here?〃
〃Noshe went off。〃
I don't know what there was in this brevity of Mrs。 Grose's that struck
me as ambiguous。 〃Went off to die?〃 Mrs。 Grose looked straight
out of the window; but I felt that; hypothetically; I had a right
to know what young persons engaged for Bly were expected to do。
〃She was taken ill; you mean; and went home?〃
〃She was not taken ill; so far as appeared; in this house。
She left it; at the end of the year; to go home; as she said;
for a short holiday; to which the time she had put in had
certainly given her a right。 We had then a young woman
a nursemaid who had stayed on and who was a good girl and clever;
and SHE took the children altogether for the interval。
But our young lady never came back; and at the very moment I
was expecting her I heard from the master that she was dead。〃
I turned this over。 〃But of what?〃
〃He never told me! But please; miss;〃 said Mrs。 Grose;
〃I must get to my work。〃
III
Her thus turning her back on me was fortunately not; for my just
preoccupations; a snub that could check the growth of our mutual esteem。
We met; after I had brought home little Miles; more intimately
than ever on the ground of my stupefaction; my general emotion:
so monstrous was I then ready to pronounce it that such a child
as had now been revealed to me should be under an interdict。
I was a little late on the scene; and I felt; as he stood wistfully
looking out for me before the door of the inn at which the coach had
put him down; that I had seen him; on the instant; without and within;
in the great glow of freshness; the same positive fragrance of purity;
in which I had; from the first moment; seen his little sister。
He was incredibly beautiful; and Mrs。 Grose had put her finger on it:
everything but a sort of passion of tenderness for him was swept away
by his presence。 What I then and there took him to my heart for was
something divine that I have never found to the same degree in any child
his indescribable little air of knowing nothing in the world but love。
It would have been impossible to carry a bad name with a greater
sweetness of innocence; and by the time I had got back to Bly with him
I remained merely bewilderedso far; that is; as I was not outraged
by the sense of the horrible letter locked up in my room; in a drawer。
As soon as I could compass a private word with Mrs。 Grose I declared
to her that it was grotesque。
She promptly understood me。 〃You mean the cruel charge?〃
〃It doesn't live an instant。 My dear woman; LOOK at h