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〃Don't you see？it spoils everything； it makes the whole situation
impossible 。 。 。 and 。 。 。 and I so loved our partnership； and was proud of it。
Don't you see？I can't go on being your partner if you make love to me。
And I was so happy。〃
Tears of disappointment were in her eyes； and she caught a swift sob in
her throat。
〃I warned you；〃 he said gravely。 〃Such unusual situations between
men and women cannot endure。 I told you so at the beginning。〃
〃Oh； yes； it is quite clear to me what you did。〃 She was angry again；
and the feminine appeal had disappeared。 〃You were very discreet in
your warning。 You took good care to warn me against every other man in
the Solomons except yourself。〃
It was a blow in the face to Sheldon。 He smarted with the truth of it；
and at the same time he smarted with what he was convinced was the
injustice of it。 A gleam of triumph that flickered in her eye because of
the hit she had made decided him。
〃It is not so one…sided as you seem to think it is；〃 he began。 〃I was
doing very nicely on Berande before you came。 At least I was not
suffering indignities； such as being accused of cowardly conduct； as you
have just accused me。 Rememberplease remember； I did not invite you
to Berande。 Nor did I invite you to stay on at Berande。 It was by
staying that you brought about thisto you unpleasant situation。 By
staying you made yourself a temptation； and now you would blame me for
it。 I did not want you to stay。 I wasn't in love with you then。 I wanted
you to go to Sydney； to go back to Hawaii。 But you insisted on staying。
You virtually〃
He paused for a softer word than the one that had risen to his lips； and
she took it away from him。
〃Forced myself on youthat's what you meant to say；〃 she cried； the
flags of battle painting her cheeks。 〃Go ahead。 Don't mind my
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feelings。〃
〃All right； I won't；〃 he said decisively； realizing that the discussion
was in danger of becoming a vituperative； schoolboy argument。 〃You
have insisted on being considered as a man。 Consistency would demand
that you talk like a man； and like a man listen to man…talk。 And listen
you shall。 It is not your fault that this unpleasantness has arisen。 I do
not blame you for anything； remember that。 And for the same reason you
should not blame me for anything。〃
He noticed her bosom heaving as she sat with clenched hands； and it
was all he could do to conquer the desire to flash his arms out and around
her instead of going on with his coolly planned campaign。 As it was； he
nearly told her that she was a most adorable boy。 But he checked all such
wayward fancies； and held himself rigidly down to his disquisition。
〃You can't help being yourself。 You can't help being a very desirable
creature so far as I am concerned。 You have made me want you。 You
didn't intend to； you didn't try to。 You were so made； that is all。 And I
was so made that I was ripe to want you。 But I can't help being myself。
I can't by an effort of will cease from wanting you； any more than you by
an effort of will can make yourself undesirable to me。〃
〃Oh； this desire！ this want！ want！ want！〃 she broke in rebelliously。 〃I
am not quite a fool。 I understand some things。 And the whole thing is so
foolish and absurdand uncomfortable。 I wish I could get away from it。
I really think it would be a good idea for me to marry Noa Noah； or
Adamu Adam； or Lalaperu there； or any black boy。 Then I could give
him orders； and keep him penned away from me； and men like you would
leave me alone； and not talk marriage and 'I want； I want。'〃
Sheldon laughed in spite of himself； and far from any genuine impulse
to laugh。
〃You are positively soulless；〃 he said savagely。
〃Because I've a soul that doesn't yearn for a man for master？〃 she took
up the gage。 〃Very well； then。 I am soulless； and what are you going to
do about it？〃
〃I am going to ask you why you look like a woman？ Why have you
the form of a woman？ the lips of a woman？ the wonderful hair of a
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woman？ And I am going to answer： because you are a womanthough
the woman in you is asleepand that some day the woman will wake up。〃
〃Heaven forbid！〃 she cried； in such sudden and genuine dismay as to
make him laugh； and to bring a smile to her own lips against herself。
〃I've got some more to say to you；〃 Sheldon pursued。 〃I did try to
protect you from every other man in the Solomons； and from yourself as
well。 As for me； I didn't dream that danger lay in that quarter。 So I
failed to protect you from myself。 I failed to protect you at all。 You
went your own wilful way； just as though I didn't existwrecking
schooners； recruiting on Malaita； and sailing schooners； one lone；
unprotected girl in the company of some of the worst scoundrels in the
Solomons。 Fowler！ and Brahms！ and Curtis！ And such is the
perverseness of human natureI am frank； you seeI love you for that too。
I love you for all of you； just as you are。〃
She made a moue of distaste and raised a hand protestingly。
〃Don't；〃 he said。 〃You have no right to recoil from the mention of my
love for you。 Remember this is a man…talk。 From the point of view of
the talk； you are a man。 The woman in you is only incidental； accidental；
and irrelevant。 You've got to listen to the bald statement of fact； strange
though it is； that I love you。〃
〃And now I won't bother you any more about love。 We'll go on the
same as before。 You are better off and safer on Berande； in spite of the
fact that I love you； than anywhere else in the Solomons。 But I want you；
as a final item of man…talk； to remember； from time to time； that I love you；
and that it will be the dearest day of my life when you consent to marry
me。 I want you to think of it sometimes。 You can't help but think of it
sometimes。