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suitable。 What more do you think the world has to offer you？〃
〃Much more； I hope。 Very much more。〃
〃I fear that the names I give things are not romantic enough。 He
is a poet。 Perhaps he would be a hero if it were possible for a
man to be a hero in this nineteenth century； which will be
infamous in history as a time when the greatest advances in the
power of man over nature only served to sharpen his greed and
make famine its avowed minister。 Erskine is at least neither a
gambler nor a slave…driver at first hand； if he lives upon
plundered labor he can no more help himself than I。 Do not say
that you hope for much more； but tell me； if you can； what more
you have any chance of getting？ Mind； I do not ask what more you
desire； we all desire unutterable things。 I ask you what more you
can obtain！〃
〃I have not found Mr。 Erskine such a wonderful person as you seem
to think him。〃
〃He is only a man。 Do you know anybody more wonderful？〃
〃Besides； my family might not approve。〃
〃They most certainly will not。 If you wish to please them； you
must sell yourself to some rich vampire of the factories or great
landlord。 If you give yourself away to a poor poet who loves you；
their disgust will be unbounded。 If a woman wishes to honor her
father and mother to their own satisfaction nowadays she must
dishonor herself。〃
〃I do not understand why you should be so anxious for me to marry
someone else？〃
〃Someone else？〃 said Trefusis； puzzled。
〃I do not mean someone else；〃 said Gertrude hastily； reddening。
〃Why should I marry at all？〃
〃Why do any of us marry？ Why do I marry？ It is a function craving
fulfilment。 If you do not marry betimes from choice； you will be
driven to do so later on by the importunity of your suitors and
of your family； and by weariness of the suspense that precedes a
definite settlement of oneself。 Marry generously。 Do not throw
yourself away or sell yourself； give yourself away。 Erskine has
as much at stake as you； and yet he offers himself fearlessly。〃
Gertrude raised her head proudly。
〃It is true；〃 continued Trefusis； observing the gesture with some
anger； 〃 that he thinks more highly of you than you deserve； but
you； on the other hand； think too lowly of him。 When you marry
him you must save him from a cruel disenchantment by raising
yourself to the level he fancies you have attained。 This will
cost you an effort； and the effort will do you good； whether it
fail or succeed。 As for him； he will find his just level in your
estimation if your thoughts reach high enough to comprehend him
at that level。〃
Gertrude moved impatiently。
〃What！〃 he said quickly。 〃Are my long…winded sacrifices to the
god of reason distasteful？ I believe I am involuntarily making
them so because I am jealous of the fellow after all。
Nevertheless I am serious； I want you to get married； though I
shall always have a secret grudge against the man who marries
you。 Agatha will suspect me of treason if you don't。 Erskine will
be a disappointed man if you don't。 You will be moody； wretched；
andand unmarried if you don't。〃
Gertrude's cheeks flushed at the word jealous； and again at his
mention of Agatha。 〃And if I do；〃 she said bitterly； 〃what then？〃
〃If you do； Agatha's mind will be at ease； Erskine will be happy；
and you！ You will have sacrificed yourself； and will have the
happiness which follows that when it is worthily done。〃
〃It is you who have sacrificed me；〃 she said； casting away her
reticence； and looking at him for the first time during the
conversation。
〃I know it；〃 he said； leaning towards her and half whispering the
words。 〃Is not renunciation the beginning and the end of wisdom？
I have sacrificed you rather than profane our friendship by
asking you to share my whole life with me。 You are unfit for
that； and I have committed myself to another union； and am
begging you to follow my example； lest we should tempt one
another to a step which would soon prove to you how truly I tell
you that you are unfit。 I have never allowed you to roam through
all the chambers of my consciousness； but I keep a sanctuary
there for you alone； and will keep it inviolate for you always。
Not even Agatha shall have the key； she must be content with the
other roomsthe drawing…room； the working…room； the dining…room；
and so forth。 They would not suit you； you would not like the
furniture or the guests； after a time you would not like the
master。 Will you be content with the sanctuary？〃 Gertrude bit
her lip； tears came into her eyes。 She looked imploringly at him。
Had they been alone； she would have thrown herself into his arms
and entreated him to disregard everything except their strong
cleaving to one another。
〃And will you keep a corner of your heart for me？〃
She slowly gave him a painful look of acquiescence。 〃Will you be
brave； and sacrifice yourself to the poor man who loves you？ He
will save you from useless solitude； or from a worldly
marriageI cannot bear to think of either as your fate。〃
〃I do not care for Mr。 Erskine；〃 she said； hardly able to control
her voice； 〃but I will marry him if you wish it。〃
〃I do wish it earnestly； Gertrude。〃
〃Then； you have my promise；〃 she said； again with some
bitterness。
〃But you will not forget me？ Erskine will have all but thata
tender recollectionnothing。〃
〃Can I do more than I have just promised？〃
〃Perhaps so； but I am too selfish to be able to conceive anything
more generous。 Our renunciation will bind us to one another as
our union could never have done。〃
They exchanged a long look。 Then he took out his watch； and began
to speak of the length of their journey； now nearly at an end。
When they arrived in London the first person they recognized on
the platform was Mr。 Jansenius。
〃Ah！ you got my telegram； I see；〃 said Trefusis。 〃Many thanks for
coming。 Wait for me whilst I put this lady into a cab。〃
When the cab was engaged； and Gertrude； with her maid； stowed
within； he whispered to her hurriedly：
〃In spite of all； I have a leaden pain here〃 （indicating his
heart）。 〃You have been brave； and I have been wise。 Do not speak
to me； but remember that we are friends always and deeply。〃
He touched her hand； and turned to the cabman； directing him
whither to drive。 Gertrude shrank back into a corner of the
vehicle as it departed。 Then Trefusis； expanding his chest like a
man just released from some cramping drudgery； rejoined Mr。
Jansenius。
〃There goes a true woman；〃 he said。 〃I have been persuading her
to take the very best step open to her。 I began by talking sense；
like a man of honor； and kept at it for half an hour； but she
would not listen to me。 Then I talked romantic nonsense of the
cheapest sort for five minutes； and she consented with tears in
her eyes。 Let us take this hansom。 Hi！ Belsize Avenue。 Yes； you
sometimes have to answer a woman according to her womanishness；
just as you have to answer a fool according to his folly。 Have
you ever made up your mind； Jansenius； whether I am an unusually
honest man； or one of the worst products of the social
organization I spend all my energies in assailingan infernal
scoundrel； in short？〃
〃Now pray do