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‘I say it’s very hard I should be made so now;’ returned my
mother; pouting; ‘and it is—very hard—isn’t it?’
He drew her to him; whispered in her ear; and kissed her。 I
knew as well; when I saw my mother’s head lean down upon his
shoulder; and her arm touch his neck—I knew as well that he
could mould her pliant nature into any form he chose; as I know;
now; that he did it。
‘Go you below; my love;’ said Mr。 Murdstone。 ‘David and I will
come down; together。 My friend;’ turning a darkening face on
Peggotty; when he had watched my mother out; and dismissed her
with a nod and a smile; ‘do you know your mistress’s name?’
‘She has been my mistress a long time; sir;’ answered Peggotty;
‘I ought to know it。’
‘That’s true;’ he answered。 ‘But I thought I heard you; as I came
upstairs; address her by a name that is not hers。 She has taken
mine; you know。 Will you remember that?’
Peggotty; with some uneasy glances at me; curtseyed herself
out of the room without replying; seeing; I suppose; that she was
expected to go; and had no excuse for remaining。 When we two
were left alone; he shut the door; and sitting on a chair; and
holding me standing before him; looked steadily into my eyes。 I
felt my own attracted; no less steadily; to his。 As I recall our being
opposed thus; face to face; I seem again to hear my heart beat fast
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and high。
‘David;’ he said; making his lips thin; by pressing them
together; ‘if I have an obstinate horse or dog to deal with; what do
you think I do?’
‘I don’t know。’
‘I beat him。’
I had answered in a kind of breathless whisper; but I felt; in my
silence; that my breath was shorter now。
‘I make him wince; and smart。 I say to myself; “I’ll conquer that
fellow”; and if it were to cost him all the blood he had; I should do
it。 What is that upon your face?’
‘Dirt;’ I said。
He knew it was the mark of tears as well as I。 But if he had
asked the question twenty times; each time with twenty blows; I
believe my baby heart would have burst before I would have told
him so。
‘You have a good deal of intelligence for a little fellow;’ he said;
with a grave smile that belonged to him; ‘and you understood me
very well; I see。 Wash that face; sir; and come down with me。’
He pointed to the washing…stand; which I had made out to be
like Mrs。 Gummidge; and motioned me with his head to obey him
directly。 I had little doubt then; and I have less doubt now; that he
would have knocked me down without the least compunction; if I
had hesitated。
‘Clara; my dear;’ he said; when I had done his bidding; and he
walked me into the parlour; with his hand still on my arm; ‘you
will not be made uncomfortable any more; I hope。 We shall soon
improve our youthful humours。’
God help me; I might have been improved for my whole life; I
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might have been made another creature perhaps; for life; by a
kind word at that season。 A word of encouragement and
explanation; of pity for my childish ignorance; of welcome home;
of reassurance to me that it was home; might have made me
dutiful to him in my heart henceforth; instead of in my hypocritical
outside; and might have made me respect instead of hate him。 I
thought my mother was sorry to see me standing in the room so
scared and strange; and that; presently; when I stole to a chair; she
followed me with her eyes more sorrowfully still—missing;
perhaps; some freedom in my childish tread—but the word was
not spoken; and the time for it was gone。
We dined alone; we three together。 He seemed to be very fond
of my mother—I am afraid I liked him none the better for that—
and she was very fond of him。 I gathered from what they said; that
an elder sister of his was coming to stay with them; and that she
was expected that evening。 I am not certain whether I found out
then; or afterwards; that; without being actively concerned in any
business; he had some share in; or some annual charge upon the
profits of; a wine…merchant’s house in London; with which his
family had been connected from his great…grandfather’s time; and
in which his sister had a similar interest; but I may mention it in
this place; whether or no。
After dinner; when we were sitting by the fire; and I was
meditating an escape to Peggotty without having the hardihood to
slip away; lest it should offend the master of the house; a coach
drove up to the garden…gate and he went out to receive the visitor。
My mother followed him。 I was timidly following her; when she
turned round at the parlour door; in the dusk; and taking me in
her embrace as she had been used to do; whispered me to love my
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new father and be obedient to him。 She did this hurriedly and
secretly; as if it were wrong; but tenderly; and; putting out her
hand behind her; held mine in it; until we came near to where he
was standing in the garden; where she let mine go; and drew hers
through his arm。
It was Miss Murdstone who was arrived; and a gloomy…looking
lady she was; dark; like her brother; whom she greatly resembled
in face and voice; and with very heavy eyebrows; nearly meeting
over her large nose; as if; being disabled by the wrongs of her sex
from wearing whiskers; she had carried them to that account。 She
brought with her two uncompromising hard black boxes; with her
initials on the lids in hard brass nails。 When she paid the
coachman she took her money out of a hard steel purse; and she
kept the purse in a very jail of a bag which hung upon her arm by
a heavy chain; and shut up like a bite。 I had never; at that time;
seen such a metallic lady altogether as Miss Murdstone was。
She was brought into the parlour with many tokens of welcome;
and there formally recognized my mother as a new and near
relation。 Then she looked at me; and said:
‘Is that your boy; sister…in…law?’
My mother acknowledged me。
‘Generally speaking;’ said Miss Murdstone; ‘I don’t like boys。
How d’ye do; boy?’
Under these encouraging circumstances; I replied that I was
very well; and that I hoped she was the same; with such an
indifferent grace; that Miss Murdstone disposed of me in two
words:
‘Wants manner!’
Having uttered which; with great distinctness; she begged the
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favour of being shown to her room; which became to me from that
time forth a place of awe and dread; wherein the two black boxes
were never seen open or known to be left unlocked; and where (for
I peeped in once or twice when she was out) numerous little steel
fetters and rivets; with which Miss Murdstone embellished herself
when she was dressed; generally hung upon the looking…glass in
formidable array。
As well as I could make out; she had come for good; and had no
intention of ever going again。 She began to ‘help’ my mother next
morning; and was in and