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ely； she would die！〃
The good woman was stopped by her crying。 I confess； I was a little stunned by her last words； but only for a moment。 At any rate； till I knew definitely what was this mysterious stain upon one so simple and pure； as Lucy seemed； I would not desert her； and so I said； and she made me answer：…
〃If you are daring in your heart to think harm of my child； sir； after knowing her as you have done； you are no good man yourself； but I am so foolish and helpless in my great sorrow； that I would fain hope to find a friend in you。 I cannot help trusting that； although you may no longer feel toward her as a lover； you will have pity upon us； and perhaps； by your learning you can tell us where to go for aid。〃
〃I implore you to tell me what this mystery is；〃 I cried； almost maddened by this suspense。
〃I cannot；〃 said she； solemnly。 〃I am under a deep vow of secrecy。 If you are to be told； it must be by her。〃 She left the room； and I remained to ponder over this strange interview。 I mechanically turned over the few books； and with eyes that saw nothing at the time； examined the tokens of Lucy's frequent presence in that room。
When I got home at night； I remembered how all these trifles spoke of a pure and tender heart and innocent life。 Mistress Clarke returned； she had been crying sadly。
〃Yes；〃 said she； 〃it is as I feared： she loves you so much that she is willing to run the fearful risk of telling you all herselfshe acknowledges it is but a poor chance； but your sympathy will be a balm； if you give it。 To…morrow； come here at ten in the morning； and； as you hope for pity in your hour of agony； repress all show of fear or repugnance you may feel towards one so grievously afflicted。〃
I half smiled。 〃Have no fear；〃 I said。 It seemed too absurd to imagine my feeling dislike to Lucy。
〃Her father loved her well；〃 said she； gravely； 〃yet he drove her out like some monstrous thing。〃
Just at this moment came a peal of ringing laughter from the garden。 It was Lucy's voice； it sounded as if she were standing just on one side of the open casementand as though she were suddenly stirred to merrimentmerriment verging on boisterousness； by the doings or sayings of some other person。 I can scarcely say why； but the sound jarred on me inexpressibly。 She knew the subject of our conversation； and must have been at least aware of the state of agitation her friend was in； she herself usually so gentle and quiet。 I half rose to go to the window； and satisfy my instinctive curiosity as to what had provoked this burst of； ill…timed laughter； but Mrs。 Clarke threw her whole weight and power upon the hand with which she pressed and kept me down。
〃For God's sake！〃 she said； white and trembling all over； 〃sit still； be quiet。 Oh！ be patient。 To…morrow you will know all。 Leave us； for we are all sorely afflicted。 Do not seek to know more about us。〃
Again that laughso musical in sound； yet so discordant to my heart。 She held me tighttighter； without positive violence I could not have risen。 I was sitting with my back to the window； but I felt a shadow pass between the sun's warmth and me； and a strange shudder ran through my frame。 In a minute or two she released me。
〃Go；〃 repeated she。 〃Be warned； I ask you once more。 I do not think you can stand this knowledge that you seek。 If I had had my own way； Lucy should never have yielded； and promised to tell you all。 Who knows what may come of it？〃
〃I am firm in my wish to know all。 I return at ten tomorrow morning； and then expect to see Mistress Lucy herself。〃
I turned away； having my own suspicions； I confess； as to Mistress Clarke's sanity。
Conjectures as to the meaning of her hints； and uncomfortable thoughts connected with that strange laughter； filled my mind。 I could hardly sleep。 I rose early； and long before the hour I had appointed； I was on the path over the common that led to the old farm…house where they lodged。 I suppose that Lucy had passed no better a night than I； for there she was also； slowly pacing with her even step； her eyes bent down； her whole look most saintly and pure。 She started when I came close to her； and grew paler as I reminded her of my appointment； and spoke with something of the impatience of obstacles that； seeing her once more； had called up afresh in my mind。 All strange and terrible hints； and giddy merriment were forgotten。 My heart gave forth words of fire； and my tongue uttered them。 Her colour went and came； as she listened； but； when I had ended my passionate speeches； she lifted her soft eyes to me； and said …
〃But you know that you have something to learn about me yet。 I only want to say this： I shall not think less of youless well of you； I meanif you； too； fall away from me when you know all。 Stop！〃 said she； as if fearing another burst of mad words。 〃Listen to me。 My father is a man of great wealth。 I never knew my mother； she must have died when I was very young。 When first I remember anything； I was living in a great； lonely house； with my dear and faithful Mistress Clarke。 My father； even； was not there； he washe isa soldier； and his duties lie aboard。 But he came from time to time； and every time I think he loved me more and more。 He brought me rarities from foreign lands； which prove to me now how much he must have thought of me during his absences。 I can sit down and measure the depth of his lost love now； by such standards as these。 I never thought whether he loved me or not； then； it was so natural； that it was like the air I breathed。 Yet he was an angry man at times； even then； but never with me。 He was very reckless； too； and； once or twice； I heard a whisper among the servants that a doom was over him； and that he knew it； and tried to drown his knowledge in wild activity； and even sometimes； sir； in wine。 So I grew up in this grand mansion； in that lonely place。 Everything around me seemed at my disposal； and I think every one loved me； I am sure I loved them。 Till about two years agoI remember it wellmy father had come to England； to us； and he seemed so proud and so pleased with me and all I had done。 And one day his tongue seemed loosened with wine； and he told me much that I had not known till then；how dearly he had loved my mother； yet how his wilful usage had caused her death； and then he went on to say how he loved me better than any creature on earth； and how； some day； he hoped to take me to foreign places； for that he could hardly bear these long absences from his only child。 Then he seemed to change suddenly； and said； in a strange； wild way； that I was not to believe what he said； that there was many a thing he loved betterhis horsehis dogI know not what。
〃And 'twas only the next morning that； when I came into his room to ask his blessing as was my wont； he received me with fierce and angry words。 'Why had I；' so he asked； 'been delighting myself in such wanton mischiefdancing over the tender plants in the flower…beds； all set with the famous Dutch bulbs he had brought from Holland？' I had never been out of doors that morning； sir； and I could not conceive what he meant； and so I said； and then he swore at me for a liar； and said I wa