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spasm in her throat and went on reading the eleventh chapter of St。
John。 She went on to the nineteenth verse：
〃And many of the Jews came to Martha and Mary to comfort them
concerning their brother。
Then Martha as soon as she heard that Jesus was coming went and
met Him： but Mary sat still in the house。
Then said Martha unto Jesus； Lord； if Thou hadst been here； my
brother had not died。
But I know that even now whatsoever Thou wilt ask of God； God will
give it Thee。。。。〃
Then she stopped again with a shamefaced feeling that her voice
would quiver and break again。
〃Jesus said unto her； thy brother shall rise again。
Martha saith unto Him； I know that he shall rise again in the
resurrection； at the last day。
Jesus said unto her； I am the resurrection and the life： he that
believeth in Me though he were dead； yet shall he live。
And whosoever liveth and believeth in Me shall never die。
Believest thou this？
She saith unto Him；〃
（And drawing a painful breath； Sonia read distinctly and forcibly as
though she were making a public confession of faith。）
〃Yea； Lord： I believe that Thou art the Christ； the Son of God Which
should come into the world。〃
She stopped and looked up quickly at him； but controlling herself
went on reading。 Raskolnikov sat without moving； his elbows on the
table and his eyes turned away。 She read to the thirty…second verse。
〃Then when Mary was come where Jesus was and saw Him； she fell
down at His feet； saying unto Him； Lord if Thou hadst been here； my
brother had not died。
When Jesus therefore saw her weeping； and the Jews also weeping
which came with her； He groaned in the spirit and was troubled；
And said； Where have ye laid him？ They said unto Him； Lord； come and
see。
Jesus wept。
Then said the Jews； behold how He loved him！
And some of them said； could not this Man which opened the eyes of
the blind； have caused that even this man should not have died？〃
Raskolnikov turned and looked at her with emotion。 Yes； he had known
it！ She was trembling in a real physical fever。 He had expected it。
She was getting near the story of the greatest miracle and a feeling
of immense triumph came over her。 Her voice rang out like a bell；
triumph and joy gave it power。 The lines danced before her eyes； but
she knew what she was reading by heart。 At the last verse 〃Could not
this Man which opened the eyes of the blind。。。〃 dropping her voice she
passionately reproduced the doubt； the reproach and censure of the
blind disbelieving Jews； who in another moment would fall at His
feet as though struck by thunder； sobbing and believing。。。。 〃And he；
he… too； is blinded and unbelieving； he； too； will hear； he； too； will
believe； yes； yes！ At once； now；〃 was what she was dreaming； and she
was quivering with happy anticipation。
〃Jesus therefore again groaning in Himself cometh to the grave。 It
was a cave； and a stone lay upon it。
Jesus said； Take ye away the stone。 Martha； the sister of him that
was dead； saith unto Him； Lord by this time he stinketh： for he hath
been dead four days。〃
She laid emphasis on the word four。
〃Jesus saith unto her； Said I not unto thee that if thou wouldest
believe； thou shouldest see the glory of God？
Then they took away the stone from the place where the dead was
laid。 And Jesus lifted up His eyes and said； Father； I thank Thee that
Thou hast heard Me。
And I knew that Thou hearest Me always； but because of the people
which stand by I said it； that they may believe that Thou hast sent
Me。
And when He thus had spoken； He cried with a loud voice； Lazarus；
come forth。
And he that was dead came forth。〃
（She read loudly； cold and trembling with ecstasy； as though she
were seeing it before her eyes。）
〃Bound hand and foot with graveclothes； and his face was bound about
with a napkin。 Jesus saith unto them； Loose him and let him go。
Then many of the Jews which came to Mary and had seen the things
which Jesus did believed on Him。〃
She could read no more； closed the book and got up from her chair
quickly。
〃That is all about the raising of Lazarus；〃 she whispered severely
and abruptly； and turning away she stood motionless； not daring to
raise her eyes to him。 She still trembled feverishly。 The candle…end
was flickering out in the battered candlestick； dimly lighting up in
the poverty…stricken room the murderer and the harlot who had so
strangely been reading together the eternal book。 Five minutes or more
passed。
〃I came to speak of something；〃 Raskolnikov said aloud； frowning。 He
got up and went to Sonia。 She lifted her eyes to him in silence。 His
face was particularly stern and there was a sort of savage
determination in it。
〃I have abandoned my family to…day；〃 he said； 〃my mother and sister。
I am not going to see them。 I've broken with them completely。〃
〃What for？〃 asked Sonia amazed。 Her recent meeting with his mother
and sister had left a great impression which she could not analyse。
She heard his news almost with horror。
〃I have only you now；〃 he added。 〃Let us go together。。。。 I've come
to you； we are