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menor do we want them cultured？ Take Joyce。 Take President Coolidge。 What star must our college students aim at？ There is Jack Britton。 There is Dr Henry Van Dyke。 Can we reconcile the two？ Take the case of Young Stribling。
And what of our daughters who must take their own Soundings？ Nancy Hawthorne is obliged to make her own Soundings in the sea of life。 Bravely and sensibly she faces the problems which come to every girl of eighteen。
It was a splendid booklet。
Are you a girl of eighteen？ Take the case of a Joan of Arc。 Take the case of Bernard Shaw。 Take the case of Betsy Ross。
Think of these things in 1925 Was there a frisqu？ page in Puritan history？ Were there two sides to Pocahontas？ Did she have a fourth dimension？〃
Are modern paintingsand poetryArt？ Yes and No。 Take Picasso。
Have tramps codes of conduct？ Send your mind adventuring。
There is Romance everywhere。 Forum writers talk to the point； are possessed of humor and wit。 But they do not try to be smart and are never long…winded。
Live the full life of the mind； exhilarated by new ideas； intoxicated by the romance of the unusual。 He laid down the booklet。
And meanwhile； stretched flat on a bed in a darkened room in the house in Triana； Manuel Garcia Maera lay with a tube in each lung； drowning with the pneumonia。 All the papers in Andalucia devoted special supplements to his death； which had been expected for some days。 Men and boys bought full…length colored pictures of him to remember him by； and lost the picture they had of him in their memories by looking at the lithographs。 Bullfighters were very relieved he was dead； because he did always in the bullring the things they could only do sometimes。 They all marched in the rain behind his coffin and there were one hundred and forty…seven bullfighters followed him out to the cemetery where they buried him in the tomb next to Joselito。 After the funeral every one sat in the caf？s out of the rain； and many colored pictures of Maera were sold to men who rolled them up and put them away in their pockets。
NOW I LAY ME
THAT night we lay on the floor in the room and I listened to the silk…worms eating。 The silk…worms fed in racks of mulberry leaves and all night you could hear them eating and a dropping sound in the leaves。 I myself did not want to sleep because I had been living for a long time with the knowledge that if I ever shut my eyes in the dark and let myself go； my soul would go out of my body。 I had been that way for a long time； ever since I had been blown up at night and felt it go out of me and go off and then come back。 I tried never to think about it； but it had started to go since； in the nights； just at the moment of going off to sleep； and I could only stop it by a very great effort。 So while now I am fairly sure that it will not really have gone out； yet then； that summer； I was unwilling to make the experiment。
I had different ways of occupying myself while I lay awake。 I would think of a trout stream I had fished along when I was a boy； and fish its whole length very carefully in my mind； fishing very carefully under all the logs； all the turns of the bank； the deep holes and the clear shallow stretches； sometimes catching trout and sometimes losing them。 I would stop fishing at noon to eat my lunch； sometimes on a log over the stream； sometimes on a high bank under a tree； and I always ate my lunch very slowly and watched the stream below me while I ate。 Often I ran out of bait because I would take only ten worms with me in a tobacco tin when I started。 When I had used them all I had to find more worms； and sometimes it was very difficult digging in the bank of the stream where the cedar trees kept out the sun and there was no grass but only the bare moist earth and often I could find no worms。 Always though I found some kind of bait； but one time in the swamp I could find no bait at all and had to cut up one of the trout I had caught and use him for bait。
Sometimes I found insects in the swamp meadows； in the grass or under ferns； and used them。 There were beetles and insects with legs like grass stems； and grubs in old rotten logs； white grubs with brown pinching heads that would not stay on the hook and emptied into nothing in the cold water； and wood ticks under logs where sometimes I found angle…worms that slipped into the ground as soon as the log was raised。 Once I used a salamander from under an old log。 The salamander was very small and neat and agile and a lovely color。 He had tiny feet that tried to hold on to the hook； and after that one time I never used a salamander； although I found them very often。 Nor did I use crickets； because of the way they acted about the hook。
Sometimes the stream ran through an open meadow； and in the dry grass I would catch grasshoppers and use them for bait and sometimes I would catch grasshoppers and toss them into the stream and watch them float along swimming on the stream and circling on the surface as the current took them and then disappear as a trout rose。 Sometimes I would fish four or five different streams in the night； starting as near as I could get to their source and fishing them down stream。 When I had finished too quickly and the time did not go； I would fish the stream over again； starting where it emptied into the lake and fishing back up stream； trying for all the trout I had missed coming down。 Some nights too I made up streams； and some of them were very exciting； and it was like being awake and dreaming。 Some of those streams I still remember and think that I have fished in them； and they are confused with streams I really know。 I gave them all names and went to them on the train and sometimes walked for miles to get to them。
But some nights I could not fish； and on those nights I was cold…awake and said my prayers over and over and tried to pray for all the people I had ever known。 That took up a great amount of time； for if you try to remember all the people you have ever known； going back to the earliest thing you rememberwhich was； with me； the attic of the house where I was born and my mother and fatherˇs wedding…cake in a tin box hanging from one of the rafters； and； in the attic； jars of snakes and other specimens that my father had collected as a boy and preserved in alcohol sunken in the jars so the backs of some of the snakes and specimens were exposed and had turned whiteif you thought back that far； you remembered a great many people。 If you prayed for all of them； saying a Hail Mary and Our Father for each one； it took a long time and finally it would be light； and then you could go to sleep； if you were in a place where you could sleep in the daylight。
On those nights I tried to remember everything that had ever happened to me； starting with just before I went to the war and remembering back from one thing to another。 I found I could only remember back to that attic in my grandfatherˇs house。 Then I would start there and remember this way again； until I reached the war。
I remembered； after my grandfather died we moved away from the house and to a new house designed and built by my mother。 Many things that were not to be moved were burned in the backya