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the part of either； and it was to be； later on； a thing of
remembrance and reflexion for her that the limit of what just here
for a longish minute passed between them was his taking in her
thoroughly successful deprecation； though conveyed without pride or
sound or touch； of the idea that she might be； out of the cage； the
very shop…girl at large that she hugged the theory she wasn't。
Yes； it was strange； she afterwards thought； that so much could
have come and gone and yet not disfigured the dear little intense
crisis either with impertinence or with resentment； with any of the
horrid notes of that kind of acquaintance。 He had taken no
liberty； as she would have so called it； and； through not having to
betray the sense of one； she herself had； still more charmingly；
taken none。 On the spot； nevertheless； she could speculate as to
what it meant that； if his relation with Lady Bradeen continued to
be what her mind had built it up to； he should feel free to proceed
with marked independence。 This was one of the questions he was to
leave her to deal withthe question whether people of his sort
still asked girls up to their rooms when they were so awfully in
love with other women。 Could people of his sort do that without
what people of her sort would call being 〃false to their love〃？
She had already a vision of how the true answer was that people of
her sort didn't； in such cases； matterdidn't count as infidelity；
counted only as something else： she might have been curious； since
it came to that； to see exactly what。
Strolling together slowly in their summer twilight and their empty
corner of Mayfair； they found themselves emerge at last opposite to
one of the smaller gates of the Park； upon which； without any
particular word about itthey were talking so of other things
they crossed the street and went in and sat down on a bench。 She
had gathered by this time one magnificent hope about himthe hope
he would say nothing vulgar。 She knew thoroughly what she meant by
that； she meant something quite apart from any matter of his being
〃false。〃 Their bench was not far within； it was near the Park Lane
paling and the patchy lamplight and the rumbling cabs and 'buses。
A strange emotion had come to her； and she felt indeed excitement
within excitement； above all a conscious joy in testing him with
chances he didn't take。 She had an intense desire he should know
the type she really conformed to without her doing anything so low
as tell him； and he had surely begun to know it from the moment he
didn't seize the opportunities into which a common man would
promptly have blundered。 These were on the mere awkward surface；
and THEIR relation was beautiful behind and below them。 She had
questioned so little on the way what they might be doing that as
soon as they were seated she took straight hold of it。 Her hours；
her confinement； the many conditions of service in the post…office；
hadwith a glance at his own postal resources and alternatives
formed； up to this stage； the subject of their talk。 〃Well； here
we are； and it may be right enough； but this isn't the least； you
know； where I was going。〃
〃You were going home？〃
〃Yes； and I was already rather late。 I was going to my supper。〃
〃You haven't had it？〃
〃No indeed！〃
〃Then you haven't eaten？〃
He looked of a sudden so extravagantly concerned that she laughed
out。 〃All day？ Yes； we do feed once。 But that was long ago。 So
I must presently say good…bye。〃
〃Oh deary ME！〃 he exclaimed with an intonation so droll and yet a
touch so light and a distress so markeda confession of
helplessness for such a case； in short； so unrelievedthat she at
once felt sure she had made the great difference plain。 He looked
at her with the kindest eyes and still without saying what she had
known he wouldn't。 She had known he wouldn't say 〃Then sup with
ME！〃 but the proof of it made her feel as if she had feasted。
〃I'm not a bit hungry；〃 she went on。
〃Ah you MUST be； awfully！〃 he made answer； but settling himself on
the bench as if； after all； that needn't interfere with his
spending his evening。 〃I've always quite wanted the chance to
thank you for the trouble you so often take for me。〃
〃Yes； I know；〃 she replied； uttering the words with a sense of the
situation far deeper than any pretence of not fitting his allusion。
She immediately felt him surprised and even a little puzzled at her
frank assent； but for herself the trouble she had taken could only；
in these fleeting minutesthey would probably never come backbe
all there like a little hoard of gold in her lap。 Certainly he
might look at it； handle it； take up the pieces。 Yet if he
understood anything he must understand all。 〃I consider you've
already immensely thanked me。〃 The horror was back upon her of
having seemed to hang about for some reward。 〃It's awfully odd you
should have been there just the one time！〃
〃The one time you've passed my place？〃
〃Yes； you can fancy I haven't many minutes to waste。 There was a
place to…night I had to stop at。〃
〃I see； I see〃 he knew already so much about her work。 〃It must
be an awful grindfor a lady。〃
〃It is； but I don't think I groan over it any more than my
companionsand you've seen THEY'RE not ladies！〃 She mildly
jested； but with an intention。 〃One gets used to things； and there
are employments I should have hated much more。〃 She had the finest
conception of the beauty of not at least boring him。 To whine； to
count up her wrongs； was what a barmaid or a shop…girl would do；
and it was quite enough to sit there like one of these。
〃If you had had another employment；〃 he remarked after a moment；
〃we might never have become acquainted。〃
〃It's highly probableand certainly not in the same way。〃 Then；
still with her heap of gold in her lap and something of the pride
of it in her manner of holding her head； she continued not to move…
…she only smiled at him。 The evening had thickened now； the
scattered lamps were red； the Park； all before them； was full of
obscure and ambiguous life； there were other couples on other
benches whom it was impossible not to see； yet at whom it was
impossible to look。 〃But I've walked so much out of my way with
you only just to show you thatthat〃with this she paused； it was
not after all so easy to express〃that anything you may have
thought is perfectly true。〃
〃Oh I've thought a tremendous lot！〃 her companion laughed。 〃Do you
mind my smoking？〃
〃Why should I？ You always smoke THERE。〃
〃At your place？ Oh yes； but here it's different。〃
〃No；〃 she said as he lighted a cigarette； 〃that's just what it
isn't。 It's quite the same。〃
〃Well； then； that's because 'there' it's so wonderful！〃
〃Then you're conscious of how wonderful it is？〃 she returned。
He jerked his handsome head in literal protest at a doubt。 〃Why
that's exactly what I mean by my gratitude for