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extra touches in the course of the actual telling。 Don't imagine that I took
the slightest pleasure in deceiving you。 It's only my will； not my
conscience； that is weakened after influenza。 I simply can't help telling
what I've made up； and telling it to the best of my ability。 But I'm
thoroughly ashamed all the time。〃
〃Not of your ability； surely？〃
〃Yes； of that； too；〃 he said； with his sad smile。 〃I always feel that I'm
not doing justice to my idea。〃
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〃You are too stern a critic； believe me。〃
〃It is very kind of you to say that。 You are very kind altogether。 Had I
known that you were so essentially a man of the world； in the best sense of
that term； I shouldn't have so much dreaded seeing you just now and
having to confess to you。 But I'm not going to take advantage of your
urbanity and your easy…going ways。 I hope that some day we may meet
somewhere when I haven't had influenza and am a not wholly undesirable
acquaintance。 As it is； I refuse to let you associate with me。 I am an older
man than you； and so I may without impertinence warn you against having
anything to do with me。〃
I deprecated this advice； of course； but for a man of weakened will he
showed great firmness。
〃You；〃 he said； 〃in your heart of hearts； don't want to have to walk and
talk continually with a person who might at any moment try to bamboozle
you with some ridiculous tale。 And I； for my part； don't want to degrade
myself by trying to bamboozle any one； especially one whom I have
taught to see through me。 Let the two talks we have had be as though they
had not been。 Let us bow to each other； as last year； but let that be all。 Let
us follow in all things the precedent of last year。〃
With a smile that was almost gay he turned on his heel； and moved
away with a step that was almost brisk。 I was a little disconcerted。 But I
was also more than a little glad。 The restfulness of silence； the charm of
libertythese things were not； after all； forfeit。 My heart thanked Laider
for that； and throughout the week I loyally seconded him in the system he
had laid down for us。 All was as it had been last year。 We did not smile to
each other； we merely bowed； when we entered or left the dining…room or
smoking…room； and when we met on the wide…spread sands or in that shop
which had a small and faded but circulating library。
Once or twice in the course of the week it did occur to me that perhaps
Laider had told the simple truth at our first interview and an ingenious lie
at our second。 I frowned at this possibility。 The idea of any one wishing to
be quit of ME was most distasteful。 However； I was to find reassurance。
On the last evening of my stay I suggested； in the small smoking…room；
that he and I should； as sticklers for precedent； converse。 We did so very
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pleasantly。 And after a while I happened to say that I had seen this
afternoon a great number of sea…gulls flying close to the shore。
〃Sea…gulls？〃 said Laider； turning in his chair。
〃Yes。 And I don't think I had ever realized how extraordinarily
beautiful they are when their wings catch the light。〃
Laider threw a quick glance at me and away from me。
〃You think them beautiful？〃
〃Surely。〃
〃Well； perhaps they are； yes； I suppose they are。 ButI don't like
seeing them。 They always remind me of somethingrather an awful thing…
…that once happened to me。〃
IT was a very awful thing indeed。
End of The Project Gutenberg Etext of A。 V。 Laider； by Max
Beerbohm
Note： I have closed contractions in the text； e。g。； 〃does n't〃 has
become 〃doesn't〃 etc。； in addition； on page 18； paragraph 3； line 5； I have
changed 〃Dyott〃 to 〃Dyatt〃
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