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a face illumined-第7章

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loveliness such as had never blessed the eye of his fancy even;

but while he yet looked the features would distort themselves into

the vivid expression of some contemptible trait; so like what he

had seen in reality; during the evening; that; in uncontrollable

irritation; he would start up and pace the floor。



His uncurbed imagination conjured up all kinds of weird and grotesque

imagery。  He found himself commiserating the girl's features as if

they were high…toned captives held in degrading bondage by a spiteful

little monster; that delighted to put them to low and menial uses。

To one of his temperament such beauty as he had just witnessed;

controlled by; and ministering to; some of the meanest and pettiest

of human vices; was like Mary Magdalene when held in thraldom by

seven devils。



A cool and matter…of…fact person could scarcely understand Van

Berg's annoyance and perturbation。  If a true artist were compelled

to see before him a portrait that required only a few skillful

touches in order to become a perfect likeness; and yet could not

give those touches; the picture would become a constant vexation;

and the better the picture; the nearer it approached the truth; the

deeper would be the irritation that all should be spoiled through

defects for which there was no necessity。



In the face that persistently haunted him Van Berg saw a beauty

that might fulfil his best ideal; and he also saw just why it did

not and never could; until its defects were remedied。  He felt

a sense of personal loss that he should have discovered a gem so

nearly perfect and yet marred by so fatal a flaw。



The next day it was still the same。  The face of Ida Mayhew interposed

itself before everything that he sought to do or see。  Whether it

were true or not; it appeared to him that in all his wanderings and

observations he had never seen features so capable of fulfilling

his highest conception of beauty did they but express the higher

qualities and emotions of the soul。  He also felt that never

before had he seen a face that would seem to him so hideous in its

perversion。



He threw down his brush and palette in despair and again gave himself

up to his fancies。  He then sketched in outline the beautiful face

as expressing joy; hope; courage; thought or love; but was provoked

to find that he ever obtained the best likeness when portraying

the vanity; silliness; or petulance which had been the only

characteristics he had seen。



He now grew metaphysical and tried to analyze the girl's mind。

He sought to grope mentally his way back into the recesses of the

soul; which had looked; acted; and spoken the previous evening。

A strange little place he imagined it; and oddly furnished。  It

occurred to him that it bore a resemblance to her dressing room;

and was full of queer feminine mysteries and artificial ideas that

had been created by conventional society rather than inspired by

nature。



He asked himself; 〃Can it be that here is a character in which the

elements of a true and good woman do not exist?  Has she no heart;

no mind; no conscience worthy of the name?  At her age she cannot

have lost these qualities。  Have they never been awakened?  Do

they exist to that degree that they can be aroused into controlling

activity?  I suppose there can be pretty idiots。  As people are

born blind or scrofulous; so I suppose others can be born devoid of

heart or conscience; inheriting from a degenerate ancestry sundry

mean and vile propensities in their places。  Human nature is

a scale that runs both up and down; and it is astonishing how far

the extremes can be apart。〃



〃How high is it possible for the same individual to rise in this

scale?  I imagine we are all prone to judge of people as if they

were finished pictures; and to think that the defects our first

scrutiny discovers will remain for all time。  It is in real life

much as in fiction。  From first to last a villain is a villain;

as if he had been created one。  The heroine is a moss rose…bud by

equal and unchanging necessity。  Is this girl a fool; and will she

remain one by any innate compulsion?  By Jove!  I would like to see

her again in the searching light of day。  I would like to follow

her career sufficiently long; to discover whether nature has been

guilty of the grotesque crime of associating inseparably with that

fine form and those exquisite features; a hideous little mind that

must go on intensifying its dwarfed deformity; until death snuffs

it out。  If this be true; the beautiful little monster that is

bothering me so suggests a knotty problem to wiser heads than mine。〃



Somewhat later his musings led him to indulge in a broad laugh。



〃Possibly;〃 he said aloud; 〃she is a modern and fashionable Undine;

and has never yet received a woman's soul。  The good Lord deliver

me from trying to awaken it; as did the knight of old in the story;

by swelling the long list of her victims。  I can scarcely imagine

a more pitiable and abject creature than a man (once sane and

sensible) in thraldom to such a tantalizing semblance of a woman。

She would no more appreciate his devotion than the jackdaw the

pearl necklace it pecked at。



〃I fear my Undine theory won't answer。  Stanton says she has no heart;

and her face and manner confirm his words。  But now I think of it;

the original Undine lived a long time agoin the age of primeval

simplicity; when even cool…blooded water nymphs had hearts。  One

is induced to think; in our age; that this organ will eventually

disappear with the other characteristics of ancient and undeveloped

man; and that the brain; or what stands for it; will become all in

all。  In the first instance the woman's soul came in through the

heart; but I suppose that in the case of a modern Undine it could

enter most readily through the head。  I wonder if there is something

like an unawakened mind; sleeping under that broad low brow that

mocks one with its fair intellectual outline。  I wonder if it

would be possible to set her thinking; and so eventually render

her capable of receiving a woman's soul。  As it is now she seems

to possess only certain disagreeable feminine propensities。  One

might engage in such an experiment as a philosopher rather than a

lover; or; what is more to my purpose; as an artist。



〃By Jove! I would half like to make the attempt; it would give zest

to one's summer vacation。  Well; what is to hinder?  Now I think

of it she remarked that she was to spend the season at the Lake

House; not far from the Hudson; a place well suited to my purposes。

There are the wild highlands on one side; and a soft pastoral country

on the other。  I could there find abundant opportunity for varied

studies in scenery; and at the same time beguile my idle hours at

the hotel with this face of marvellous capabilities and possibilities。

The features already exist; and would be beautiful if the girl were

dead; and they could be no longer distorted by the smal
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