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se； for gratitude restrains me； I can only throw myself upon your generosity； and entreat you to spare the feelings of an anxious； of a doting Mother。 Believe me when I assure you that I lament the necessity of rejecting your acquaintance； But there is no remedy； and Antonia's interest obliges me to beg you to forbear your visits。 By complying with my request； you will increase the esteem which I already feel for you； and of which everything convinces me that you are truly deserving。'
'Your frankness charms me；' replied Lorenzo； 'You shall find that in your favourable opinion of me you were not deceived。 Yet I hope that the reasons； now in my power to allege； will persuade you to withdraw a request which I cannot obey without infinite reluctance。 I love your Daughter； love her most sincerely： I wish for no greater happiness than to inspire her with the same sentiments； and receive her hand at the Altar as her Husband。 'Tis true； I am not rich myself； My Father's death has left me but little in my own possession； But my expectations justify my pretending to the Conde de las Cisternas' Daughter。'
He was proceeding； but Elvira interrupted him。
'Ah！ Don Lorenzo； you forget in that pompous title the meanness of my origin。 You forget that I have now past fourteen years in Spain； disavowed by my Husband's family； and existing upon a stipend barely sufficient for the support and education of my Daughter。 Nay； I have even been neglected by most of my own Relations； who out of envy affect to doubt the reality of my marriage。 My allowance being discontinued at my Father…in…law's death； I was reduced to the very brink of want。 In this situation I was found by my Sister； who amongst all her foibles possesses a warm； generous； and affectionate heart。 She aided me with the little fortune which my Father left her； persuaded me to visit Madrid； and has supported my Child and myself since our quitting Murcia。 Then consider not Antonia as descended from the Conde de la Cisternas： Consider her as a poor and unprotected Orphan； as the Grand…child of the Tradesman Torribio Dalfa； as the needy Pensioner of that Tradesman's Daughter。 Reflect upon the difference between such a situation； and that of the Nephew and Heir of the potent Duke of Medina。 I believe your intentions to be honourable； But as there are no hopes that your Uncle will approve of the union； I foresee that the consequences of your attachment must be fatal to my Child's repose。'
'Pardon me； Segnora； You are misinformed if you suppose the Duke of Medina to resemble the generality of Men。 His sentiments are liberal and disinterested： He loves me well； and I have no reason to dread his forbidding the marriage when He perceives that my happiness depends upon Antonia。 But supposing him to refuse his sanction； what have I still to fear？ My Parents are no more； My little fortune is in my own possession： It will be sufficient to support Antonia； and I shall exchange for her hand Medina's Dukedom without one sigh of regret。'
'You are young and eager； It is natural for you to entertain such ideas。 But Experience has taught me to my cost that curses accompany an unequal alliance。 I married the Conde de las Cisternas in opposition to the will of his Relations； Many an heart…pang has punished me for the imprudent step。 Whereever we bent our course； a Father's execration pursued Gonzalvo。 Poverty overtook us； and no Friend was near to relieve our wants。 Still our mutual affection existed； but alas！ not without interruption。
Accustomed to wealth and ease； ill could my Husband support the transition to distress and indigence。 He looked back with repining to the comforts which He once enjoyed。 He regretted the situation which for my sake He had quitted； and in moments when Despair possessed his mind； has reproached me with having made him the Companion of want and wretchedness！ He has called me his bane！ The source of his sorrows； the cause of his destruction！ Ah God！ He little knew how much keener were my own heart's reproaches！ He was ignorant that I suffered trebly； for myself； for my Children； and for him！ 'Tis true that his anger seldom lasted long： His sincere affection for me soon revived in his heart； and then his repentance for the tears which He had made me shed tortured me even more than his reproaches。 He would throw himself on the ground； implore my forgiveness in the most frantic terms； and load himself with curses for being the Murderer of my repose。 Taught by experience that an union contracted against the inclinations of families on either side must be unfortunate； I will save my Daughter from those miseries which I have suffered。 Without your Uncle's consent； while I live； She never shall be yours。 Undoubtedly He will disapprove of the union； His power is immense； and Antonia shall not be exposed to his anger and persecution。'
'His persecution？ How easily may that be avoided！ Let the worst happen； it is but quitting Spain。 My wealth may easily be realised； The Indian Islands will offer us a secure retreat； I have an estate； though not of value； in Hispaniola： Thither will we fly； and I shall consider it to be my native Country； if it gives me Antonia's undisturbed possession。'
'Ah！ Youth； this is a fond romantic vision。 Gonzalvo thought the same。 He fancied that He could leave Spain without regret； But the moment of parting undeceived him。 You know not yet what it is to quit your native land； to quit it； never to behold it more！
You know not； what it is to exchange the scenes where you have passed your infancy； for unknown realms and barbarous climates！ To be forgotten； utterly eternally forgotten； by the Companions of your Youth！ To see your dearest Friends； the fondest objects of your affection； perishing with diseases incidental to Indian atmospheres； and find yourself unable to procure for them necessary assistance！ I have felt all this！ My Husband and two sweet Babes found their Graves in Cuba： Nothing would have saved my young Antonia but my sudden return to Spain。 Ah！ Don Lorenzo； could you conceive what I suffered during my absence！ Could you know how sorely I regretted all that I left behind； and how dear to me was the very name of Spain！ I envied the winds which blew towards it： And when the Spanish Sailor chaunted some well…known air as He past my window； tears filled my eyes while I thought upon my native land。 Gonzalvo too 。 。 。 My Husband 。 。 。'。
Elvira paused。 Her voice faltered； and She concealed her face with her handkerchief。 After a short silence She rose from the Sopha； and proceeded。
'Excuse my quitting you for a few moments： The remembrance of what I have suffered has much agitated me； and I need to be alone。 Till I return peruse these lines。 After my Husband's death I found them among his papers； Had I known sooner that He entertained such sentiments； Grief would have killed me。 He wrote these verses on his voyage to Cuba； when his mind was clouded by sorrow； and He forgot that He had a Wife and Children。
What we are losing； ever seems to us the most precious： Gonzalvo was quitting Spain for ever； and therefore was Spain dearer to his eyes than all else which the World co