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ied in so low a voice that I could not distinguish her words; but I perceived that She used terms of gentleness and submission。 The conversation was interrupted by the arrival of a young Pensioner who informed the Domina that She was waited for in the Parlour。 The old Lady rose; kissed the cheek of Agnes; and retired。 The newcomer remained。 Agnes spoke much to her in praise of somebody whom I could not make out; but her Auditor seemed highly delighted; and interested by the conversation。 The Nun showed her several letters; the Other perused them with evident pleasure; obtained permission to copy them; and withdrew for that purpose to my great satisfaction。
No sooner was She out of sight; than I quitted my concealment。 Fearing to alarm my lovely Mistress; I drew near her gently; intending to discover myself by degrees。 But who for a moment can deceive the eyes of love? She raised her head at my approach; and recognised me in spite of my disguise at a single glance。 She rose hastily from her seat with an exclamation of surprize; and attempted to retire; But I followed her; detained her; and entreated to be heard。 Persuaded of my falsehood She refused to listen to me; and ordered me positively to quit the Garden。 It was now my turn to refuse。 I protested that however dangerous might be the consequences; I would not leave her till She had heard my justification。 I assured her that She had been deceived by the artifices of her Relations; that I could convince her beyond the power of doubt that my passion had been pure and disinterested; and I asked her what should induce me to seek her in the Convent; were I influenced by the selfish motives which my Enemies had ascribed to me。
My prayers; my arguments; and vows not to quit her; till She had promised to listen to me; united to her fears lest the Nuns should see me with her; to her natural curiosity; and to the effection which She still felt for me in spite of my supposed desertion; at length prevailed。 She told me that to grant my request at that moment was impossible; But She engaged to be in the same spot at eleven that night; and to converse with me for the last time。 Having obtained this promise I released her hand; and She fled back with rapidity towards the Convent。
I communicated my success to my Ally; the old Gardener: He pointed out an hiding place where I might shelter myself till night without fear of a discovery。 Thither I betook myself at the hour when I ought to have retired with my supposed Master; and waited impatiently for the appointed time。 The chillness of the night was in my favour; since it kept the other Nuns confined to their Cells。 Agnes alone was insensible of the inclemency of the Air; and before eleven joined me at the spot which had witnessed our former interview。 Secure from interruption; I related to her the true cause of my disappearing on the fatal fifth of May。 She was evidently much affected by my narrative: When it was concluded; She confessed the injustice of her suspicions; and blamed herself for having taken the veil through despair at my ingratitude。
'But now it is too late to repine!' She added; 'The die is thrown: I have pronounced my vows; and dedicated myself to the service of heaven。 I am sensible; how ill I am calculated for a Convent。 My disgust at a monastic life increases daily: Ennui and discontent are my constant Companions; and I will not conceal from you that the passion which I formerly felt for one so near being my Husband is not yet extinguished in my bosom。 But we must part! Insuperable Barriers divide us from each other; and on this side the Grave we must never meet again!'
I now exerted myself to prove that our union was not so impossible as She seemed to think it。 I vaunted to her the Cardinal…Duke of Lerma's influence at the Court of Rome: I assured her that I should easily obtain a dispensation from her vows; and I doubted not but Don Gaston would coincide with my views; when informed of my real name and long attachment。 Agnes replied that since I encouraged such an hope; I could know but little of her Father。 Liberal and kind in every other respect; Superstition formed the only stain upon his character。 Upon this head He was inflexible; He sacrificed his dearest interests to his scruples; and would consider it an insult to suppose him capable of authorising his daughter to break her vows to heaven。
'But suppose;' said I interrupting her; 'Suppose that He should disapprove of our union; Let him remain ignorant of my proceedings; till I have rescued you from the prison in which you are now confined。 Once my Wife; you are free from his authority: I need from him no pecuniary assistance; and when He sees his resentment to be unavailing; He will doubtless restore you to his favour。 But let the worst happen; Should Don Gaston be irreconcileable; my Relations will vie with each other in making you forget his loss: and you will find in my Father a substitute for the Parent of whom I shall deprive you。'
'Don Raymond;' replied Agnes in a firm and resolute voice; 'I love my Father: He has treated me harshly in this one instance; but I have received from him in every other so many proofs of love that his affection is become necessary to my existence。 Were I to quit the Convent; He never would forgive me; nor can I think that on his deathbed He would leave me his curse; without shuddering at the very idea。 Besides; I am conscious myself; that my vows are binding: Wilfully did I contract my engagement with heaven; I cannot break it without a crime。 Then banish from your mind the idea of our being ever united。 I am devoted to religion; and however I may grieve at our separation; I would oppose obstacles myself; to what I feel would render me guilty。'
I strove to overrule these ill…grounded scruples: We were still disputing upon the subject; when the Convent Bell summoned the Nuns to Matins。 Agnes was obliged to attend them; But She left me not till I had compelled her to promise that on the following night She would be at the same place at the same hour。 These meetings continued for several Weeks uninterrupted; and 'tis now; Lorenzo; that I must implore your indulgence。 Reflect upon our situation; our youth; our long attachment: Weigh all the circumstances which attended our assignations; and you will confess the temptation to have been irresistible; you will even pardon me when I acknowledge; that in an unguarded moment; the honour of Agnes was sacrificed to my passion。'
(Lorenzo's eyes sparkled with fury: A deep crimson spread itself over his face。 He started from his seat; and attempted to draw his sword。 The Marquis was aware of his movement; and caught his hand: He pressed it affectionately。
'My Friend! My Brother! Hear me to the conclusion! Till then restrain your passion; and be at least convinced; that if what I have related is criminal; the blame must fall upon me; and not upon your Sister。'
Lorenzo suffered himself to be prevailed upon by Don Raymond's entreaties。 He resumed his place; and listened to the rest of the narrative with a gloomy and impatient countenance。 The Marquis thus continued。)
'Scarcely was the first burst of passion past w