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g with fortune； she muttered：
〃I don't like to see anyone cry like that！〃
And finding that the girl remained obstinately withdrawn from sight or sympathy； she moved towards the door。
〃Well；〃 she said； with ironical compassion； 〃if you want me； I'll be in the kitchen。〃
The little model remained lying on her bed。 Every now and then she gulped； like a child flung down on the grass apart from its comrades； trying to swallow down its rage； trying to bury in the earth its little black moment of despair。 Slowly those gulps grew fewer； feebler； and at last died away。 She sat up； sweeping Hilary's bundle of notes； on which she had been lying； to the floor。
At sight of that bundle she broke out afresh； flinging herself down sideways with her cheek on the wet bolster； and； for some time after her sobs had ceased again； still lay there。 At last she rose and dragged herself over to the looking…glass； scrutinising her streaked； discoloured face； the stains in the cheeks； the swollen eyelids； the marks beneath her eyes； and listlessly she tidied herself。 Then； sitting down on the brown tin trunk； she picked the bundle of notes off the floor。 They gave forth a dry peculiar crackle。 Fifteen ten… pound notesall Hilary's travelling money。 Her eyes opened wider and wider as she counted； and tears； quite suddenly； rolled down on to those thin slips of paper。
Then slowly she undid her dress； and forced them down till they rested； with nothing but her vest between them and the quivering warm flesh which hid her heart。
CHAPTER XLI
THE HOUSE OF HARMONY
At half…past ten that evening Stephen walked up the stone…flagged pathway of his brother's house。
〃Can I see Mrs。 Hilary？〃
〃Mr。 Hilary went abroad this morning； sir； and Mrs。 Hilary has not yet come in。〃
〃Will you give her this letter？ No； I'll wait。 I suppose I can wait for her in the garden？〃
〃Oh yes； sit！〃
〃Very well。〃
〃I'll leave the door open； sir； in case you want to come in。〃
Stephen walked across to the rustic bench and sat down。 He stared gloomily through the dusk at his patent…leather boots； and every now and then he flicked his evening trousers with the letter。 Across the dark garden； where the boughs hung soft； unmoved by wind； the light from Mr。 Stone's open window flowed out in a pale river； moths； born of the sudden heat； were fluttering up this river to its source。
Stephen looked irritably at the figure of Mr。 Stone； which could be seen； bowed； and utterly still； beside his desk； so； by lifting the spy…hole thatch； one may see a convict in his cell stand gazing at his work； without movement； numb with solitude。
'He's getting awfully broken up；' thought Stephen。 'Poor old chap！ His ideas are killing him。 They're not human nature； never will be。' Again he flicked his trousers with the letter； as though that document emphasised the fact。 'I can't help being sorry for the sublime old idiot！'
He rose； the better to see his father…in…law's unconscious figure。 It looked as lifeless and as cold as though Mr。 Stone had followed some thought below the ground； and left his body standing there to await his return。 Its appearance oppressed Stephen。
'You might set the house on fire；' he thought； 'he'd never notice。'
Mr。 Stone's figure moved； the sound of along sigh came out to Stephen in the windless garden。 He turned his eyes away； with the sudden feeling that it was not the thing to watch the old chap like this； then； getting up； he went indoors。 In his brother's study he stood turning over the knick…knacks on the writing…table。
'I warned Hilary that he was burning his fingers；' he thought。
At the sound of the latch…key he went back to the hall。
However much he had secretly disapproved of her from the beginning； because she had always seemed to him such an uncomfortable and tantalising person； Stephen was impressed that night by the haunting unhappiness of Bianca's face； as if it had been suddenly disclosed to him that she could not help herself。 This was disconcerting； being； in a sense； a disorderly way of seeing things。
〃You look tired； B。；〃 he said。 〃I'm sorry； but I thought it better to bring this round tonight。〃
Bianca glanced at the letter。
〃It is to you；〃 she said。 〃I don't wish to read it； thank you。〃
Stephen compressed his lips。
〃But I wish you to hear it； please；〃 he said。 〃I'll read it out； if you'll allow me。
〃'CHARING CROSS STATION。
〃'DEAR STEVIE；
〃'I told you yesterday morning that I was going abroad alone。 Afterwards I changed my mindI meant to take her。 I went to her lodgings for the purpose。 I have lived too long amongst sentiments for such a piece of reality as that。 Class has saved me； it has triumphed over my most primitive instincts。
〃'I am going aloneback to my sentiments。 No slight has been placed on Biancabut my married life having become a mockery； I shall not return to it。 The following address will find me； and I shall ask you presently to send on my household gods。
〃'Please let Bianca know the substance of this letter。
〃'Ever your affectionate brother；
〃'HILARY DALLISON。〃'
With a frown Stephen folded up the letter； and restored it to his breast pocket。
'It's more bitter than I thought；' he reflected； 'and yet he's done the only possible thing！'
Bianca was leaning her elbow on the mantelpiece with her face turned to the wall。 Her silence irritated Stephen； whose loyalty to his brother longed to fend a vent。
〃I'm very much relieved； of course；〃 he said at last。 〃It would have been fatal〃
She did not move； and Stephen became increasingly aware that this was a most awkward matter to touch on。
〃Of course；〃 he began again。 〃But； B。； I do think youratherI mean…〃 And again he stopped before her utter silence； her utter immobility。 Then； unable to go away without having in some sort expressed his loyalty to Hilary； he tried once more： 〃Hilary is the kindest man I know。 It's not his fault if he's out of touch with lifeif he's not fit to deal with things。 He's negative！〃
And having thus in a single word； somewhat to his own astonishment； described his brother； he held out his hand。
The hand which Bianca placed in it was feverishly hot。 Stephen felt suddenly compunctious。
〃I'm awfully sorry；〃 he stammered； 〃about the whole thing。 I'm awfully sorry for you…〃
Bianca drew back her hand。
With a little shrug Stephen turned away。
'What are you to do with women like that？' was his thought； and saying dryly； 〃Good…night； B。；〃 he went。
For some time Bianca sat in Hilary's chair。 Then； by the faint glimmer coming through the half…open door； she began to wander round the room； touching the walls； the books； the prints； all the familiar things among which he had lived so many years。。。。
In that dim continual journey she was like a disharmonic spirit traversing the air above where its body lies。
The door creaked behind her。 A voice said sharply：
〃What are you doing in this house？〃
Mr。 Stone was standing beside the bust of Socrates。 Bianca went up to him。
〃Father！〃
Mr。 Stone stared。 〃It is you！ I thought it was a thief！ Where is Hilary？〃
〃Gone away。〃
〃Alone？〃
Bianca bowed her head。